Feeling really sad right now...

[Neeters1]

I am feeling really sad right now.  I know that I have slipped into depression because of all that has gone on.  I was pretty streched before my hubby had surgery, now I wonder every day if this will be the day that I will break.  My hubby has been kinda mean to me lately.  Today for example.  I was trying to get a toddler bed out of the boys bed room to put in another room, and I had a hard time getting it out of the room, so I said goodness this is not going to work how am I going to get this done.  Then I said to my husband who was on the computer that I did not know why he would put a dresser by the door it makes thing hard to get out of the room.   He then said I will help you.  I said okay..  We got the bed out of the boys room and was heading to the next room and I kinda got stuck and he said to me, "Don't you have any dept (sp) deception (sp)?"  I told him must not.  Then he said that I needed to get the bottom of the bed in first and I got stuck like I could not get myself through the bed and the door.  I told him that I was to fat, and he said just slide through the bed and the door.  So I did, and the said, see your fat is not as hard as you thought that it was.  That hurt!  First off I have been trying to lose weight for a while now, and he had his surgery and he has lost 20 pounds already.  I have only lost 5.  So, I said how it hurt me when he said that, and he said well you complain to much!  He said I am sick of hearing you complain.  Well, I think that I deserve to complain when I am the one that is doing ALL of the cleaning, and the making of beds, laundry, and doing ALL of the cooking, and ALL of the taking care of the kids, and ALL of the driving him and my oldest to their appointments?  I don't get any thanks, hugs or anything.  All that I get is stop complaining.  When I said yesterday that I was tired and I just don't get any breaks, he said..  You are not suppose to have any breaks.  As because I am a women I am suppose to work 24/7 while he is the one that is sitting around and is able to do pretty much nothing. All that he does is sleep, and sit in his chair, and on the computer.  I feel like I am a single Mom, and I have this man living with me. I have not had much sleep..  I just need a break, and he thinks that sitting on the couch for 5 minutes looking at something is a big break.  Heck I was marley looking to see if it is something that I wanted to keep or throw out.  Nice huh!  So, needless to say my husband has been a butt head lately...

[my_jasnkiki]

Oct. 16, 2009 at 10:16 PM

I'm sorry that he is was being mean to you.  Don't put yourself down because all he will do is treat you the same way.  I learned the hard way.  I would always put myself down, constantly. 

You don't have any reason to put yourself down.  You have to flaunt your beauty around because he is lucky to have you.