I am failing at Motherhood....

[sakeenah35]

Salaams and peace to all:

Sometimes the best way to express your feelings is to write it down or type in this case. In one word, I am overwhelmed! Sometimes I think I can do it all, but it becomes too much for me. I am a single mother with three kids, one having Autism and what a challenge that is. I have a 14 going on 15 year old who ran away last Thursday and scared me half to death. I have a 10 year old who thinks she is grown and loves to talk back to me. I have to make sure they have food to eat, clothes to wear, a roof over their heads and sometimes I dont have enough to even get by, but Allah(God) is very Merciful.

Sometimes I go in my room with the door closed and just think about my life, and what can I do to make it better, but its the same thing everyday. I tell myself I might need some parent counseling or group to help me to cope, and I'm so close to doing that. Sometimes its hard for me to admit that I need help, especially emotionally, but sometimes I feel like I am going to lose it.

I pray and try to do my best, but sometimes the stress takes over. I love my kids, I love my faith, but my iman is slowly slipping away, I am not the strong one anymore like I used to be. People tell me that I am a strong sister, but I dont know anymore, mashallah. I guess I just wanted to vent and let it out, so thanks for listening whoever is reading this. Take care and keep me in your prayers.

[sati769leigh]

Oct. 5, 2009 at 6:32 PM

((((((hugs))))))))

[kayladbrooks]

Oct. 5, 2009 at 6:55 PM

I am so sorry that you feel so overwhelmed. I am hoping the best for you. and will surely keep you lifted in prayer. It is hard being a mom, but things are going to get better!

[shelli591]

Oct. 21, 2009 at 3:19 PM

I hope things get better for you. That sounds challenging taking care of three kids all on your own, especially one with autism. I have two children and work full time and even though i do have a husband sometimes I feel like I can't take the stress of everything or that I'm not doing a good job. Just stay strong and it will all work out. By the way, I live in Queens. If I can do anything to help you let me know.

[yellowbird03]

Oct. 21, 2009 at 10:59 PM

InshaAllah Dear Sister, things will get better by Allah's Grace & Mercy, Amin. Don't loose hope, don't fall into despair of Allah's Grace & Love for you. These are tests & trials that will soon pass, inshaAllah. Try reading the story of Prophet Ayyub (A.S.). I find his struggles to be very inspirational by way of trusting in Allah & staying patient & steadfast. Love you Sister for Allah, drop by anytime...As Salaamu Alaikum♥

[salamaat]

Oct. 31, 2009 at 1:28 PM

May Allah give you the strength you need to get through this test successfully. May He grant you patience and increase you in Iman. Aamen. *Hugs*

[saltycoqui]

Dec. 16, 2009 at 11:12 PM

I also feel I can express myself by typing things down.
My dear you are not a failure. All mothers go through testing times. I am a single mom and my daughter who is 13 and my son who is 11 are both mildly autistic. You admit that you need help. That is a great first step among the seeminly endless ones we will take as mothers. Find your strength in whatever ways you can. If you ever need to talk, look me up. ((Hugs))

[midwestmomx3]

Apr. 26, 2010 at 9:46 PM

I hope things are going better for you now.  Oh sweetie, sometimes it is just plain hard.  But keep your faith.  Find friends and family to bring you comfort and joy.  Pray without ceasing.