I was up all night again.

[MOmomof8]

But I did figure out why, I'm out of sleeping pills.  I put my meds for the week in a pill dispenser & I had forgotten that I didn't have enough to make it through the week.  I also had another med that I needed to pick up but forgot about.   So tomorrow I will get my sleeping pills & hopefully get back on track.

I didn't get everything done that I had planned to do today.  I did watch 2 of my grandchildren & they were good to me.  Chris, 10 months old, was brought over at 5:30 am but he was still asleep & he stayed asleep until about 10 minutes before his mommy came to get him.  I had just enough time to change his diaper & fix a bottle.  Easy early morning which I really loved.  Then a little after he left my granddaughter woke up.  I had her for a few hours, we ate breakfast together & it wasn't something that was good for you.  Isn't that what being Grandma is all about.  But as a mom, I did let my boys eat cake for breakfast on Saturdays sometimes.  You have to spoil them alittle bit.  I kept telling her I was tired & needed a nap.  She kept telling me the sun was up so no sleeping.  I guess I made a mistake on one of the bus trips telling her that the sun goes to sleep so it gets dark & that's when we go to sleep.  Then when the sun wakes up in the morning, we wake up too.  She must have read something in there about no sleeping cause the sun is up.  Her daddy also told me that she has been getting up lately at the crack of dawn.  Oopsy.  She's a smart little bugger, to smart sometimes.   She is so funny, my dh & I sit & watch her, listen to her & laugh.  She has learned to fake laugh & she's really good at it.   She now does it all the time.  She'll just be sitting there playing with the toys, look at me & just laugh.   If she keeps it up I just may get a complex from it...lol She is being potty trained right now & she drives me nuts.  She will say potty, potty like it is so urgent then we get in the bathroom & she says no.  She don't have to potty so I think she just likes to see my rush.  I really hate it when I'm on the pot & she barges in announcing that she has to go potty.  I rush then she says no, don't have to potty.  My boys didn't do that to me.  Maybe that's just one of the differences between boys & girls.  She will be 3 on November 1st & is already a drama queen.  And forget having her & my almost 2 year old granddaughter together.  That one has been a drama queen since the day she was born.  I wonder if she is teaching Rose to be one...I'll have to watch them closer.  Although I don't know how much closer I can watch them.  The toys are right in front of the TV & they aren't allowed to leave that area.  I'm too old to go chasing little once all over the house anymore.  So they are sorta penned in.  They only way in & out of that area is to go past me & they don't get past me very often.  I put my recliner up & it totally cuts off the path.  The 2 year old has gotten smart & started crawling under then screams bloody murder when I catch her.  She is the screamer but then so is her mom.  I didn't come into her life until she was 16 but she could really scream even then.  It's bad enough to make you want to keep ear plugs in your pocket cause there is no warning before she starts.  She just snaps & so does her daughter.  Maybe I was lucky having just boys.  But then her sister isn't like that.  But she does get some wild hairs now & then.  When she turned 18, her & a friend packed up their stuff, moved about 300 miles away.  She had just met her bio mom & wanted to live close to her & her family.  She's also been know to shave her head for no reason.  That I'm sorta used to cause my sister does things like that.  I may have just had only 4 years with them but they are my children just the same.  Anytime a kid does something & you just want to smack them upside their head, you know they are yours for sure.  If they weren't, you wouldn't care enough to want to do that.  Now I'm not saying that I would do it, just that I want to.  I also want to win the lottery but that ain't gonna happen, mainly cause I don't play but you get the picture.  I wouldn't hurt any of my kids, grandkids, in-law kids or whatever kids.  I would like to knock my dh upside the head at times too, can I do that & get away with it......I think not, he would hit back...lol  

I did get in an hour nap at one point today.  My dh had a bus trip to take the volleyball girls to Pexico so I went with him.  I have to get in atleast a cat nap.  That is a much smaller town than I thought it would be.  We always drop the kids & coaches off at the school then go eat.  Tonight about the only place to eat was at a convenience store.  You know it's a small town when you can order a hamburger & stuff & sit at a table to eat in a convenience store.  But I didn't care, all that was important was that we were together with no kids, no grandkids & no animals, just the two of us & some strangers.  I really enjoy going on trips with him.  I really love it when he takes the students out of town & we get to stay at a hotel free.  It only costs us for one meal each time we eat cause the school pays for his meals.  The school is really wonderful for allowing spouses to go on the trips.  I'm sure there are schools out there that don't.  There has been a few trips that we really had a great group of kids & had alot of fun being with them.  Sometimes we get to sit in & watch them perform or whatever they are doing.   They take pride in coming on the bus & telling us how they did.  Tonight both JV & varsity won.  They have another game tomorrow night.    My dh has had alot of trips these past 2 weeks which is really great cause we need the spending money.  I want to start buying for Christmas.   Of course every year I say that & every year we do the shopping after Thanksgiving which means fighting the crowds.  I hate crowds, I hate to be rushed.  I like taking my time & really thinking about the person I'm buying for.  This year we are keeping our spending down so no really great gifts for anyone.  I'm looking online to pay to the kids & grandkids gifts that live in KS.  That way I can have it mailed directly to them which I am hoping will help me get the gifts there on time for a change.  Yes, I'm bad, seems no matter how hard I try or hard I plan, I'm always late.  That really ticks off some of my kids, but I don't mean to.  I just lose time, get overwhelmed then forget it.  When I get distressed I start over & try again.  I keep doing this until it gets mailed.  I've been trying to write my granddaughter a letter, get some Halloween stuff together & make cards for all my grandkids for a week now with no success.  Well, I did make 2 cards but after I made them I discovered I had to pay for them & I wanted to print them out myself here.  So I will do that kind of card later.    There is alot going on here right now with the bus trips, watching the kids & birthdays coming up.  We have 4 grandkids that live close & all 4 of them have birthdays from October 29th to December 14th.  The 2 boys are turning 1, JJ is turning 2 & Rose is turning 3.  I'm glad that our other grandkid's birthdays are alittle more spread out.  There are 2 in Feb, 1 in March, 1 in May, 2 in July & 1 in Aug.  But then when you add the kids & spouses birthdays, I think we just may hit every month, some months twice.  One daughter was reminding me that her anniversary was coming up.  I told her that was nice but that was between the two of them, we don't do anniversaries unless it's ours.  Ours is coming up on October 29th, it will be 4 years.  It was so nice of Danielle & Nick to have their baby for us on our 3rd anniversary.  I keep calling him my baby & she keeps reminding me who gave birth to him.  I have to remember to tell her thanks for having my baby for me on my wedding anniversary....lol  She's gonna love that.   They are planning a big bash for Eli's first birthday.  They are looking for a place to rent out & invite all of Nick's dad's family, all of my family & all of Danielle's family.  I don't think my ex will come since he knows I will be there.  I've been thinking about not going so he will show up.  I hate that but I will do it so Nick can have his father involved in the important things in his life.  Yes, I'm great,l know.  It's all about the kids/grandkids.  I don't want to be the reason for his dad don't show.  It's not right, it's not fair but that's life in the big city & small towns too. 

Well, sorry it's another long one.  I talk alot.  I didn't when I was growing up so I guess I'm making up for it in my old age....lol   I couldn't even write an essay in high school, why write 3000 words when one sentence can answer the question, I never understood that.  Now I could do it, I've learned to BS with the best of them, use alot of useless words as fill ins, so on & so forth.  Or maybe I just didn't have much to say back then.......no that ain't it, my friends would tell you that ain't it.  I've always had alot to say I was just choosey about who I told it to.  Well, that's it for tonight. 

[caitxrawks]

Oct. 6, 2009 at 1:51 AM

Ughhh I know the feeling when you're up all night without any sleep medicine. I get 15 Ambien a month (Medicaid will only pay for 15 blah on them) and when I run out, it takes me a good week to get back on track. I haven't taken any in about two weeks, and I think my circadian rhythm is regulated finally, lol.

[MSugarKane]

Oct. 6, 2009 at 8:02 AM

I fence in my grandchildren and the toys to the living room area because I can't stand toys everywhere in the house.  Recently we let the gate down betweeen the living room and kitchen to give the kids more space to run around in and so far its been OK.   The two year old boy has figured out how to carry his chair over to the kitchen counter and climb up on the counter.   UGH!  But I can hear the chair and the noise when he is doing it.  So before I sit down I make sure the counters are cleaned off of anything he shouldn't be getting into. 

But they are fun to have around, keeps live busy thats for sure!