Life

[CindySchall]

lately it seems like there is more life than I know how to handle and deal with!    I lost a very good friend on August 31 I never dreamed that she would be gone  she died very suddenly at the age of 55 she was like a second mom and qquite often I went to her for stuff more than my own mother.   It was the biggest shock ever to have to get that phone call.  I helped do a lot of the stuff you do after a person dies and it was so tough.  I never dreamed I would be diggin for her lif insurance or picking her funeral arrangements but hat is where I found my self.   1 month after she died I went to work and was told I would no longer have a job at the end of october  so now it has been a mad search for the right job and this is a problem I would have gone to her with.  I have picked a lot of my jobs with the input of her and now this time I had to be strong and trust my gut and do what was best for my family so I have found a job and I decided it was the right choice for me and my family event hough my husband was second guessing I still went with my feelings and kept persuing the job and now I am stuck waiting for that last call to say you stat on this day.   Life seems to never stop changing and I hate that I sure dont like these changes that I have had to face in the last couple of months.  Life will go on though and I will grow stonger and wiser every day and I will trust my self and have faith in myself.  The last song on my playlist is If you could see me now by Truth.  This song was playing the day after her death as I was headed out to her house to help do those tasks and decided I wasnt ready so I drove around a little more and this song came on and it seems to come on time I find my self sad and wishing for her to be here.  I am glad that she is were she is and I wouldnt wish her to leave heaven to come back, but I would sure do about anything for one more day with her.

[godsproperty07]

Oct. 10, 2009 at 7:10 PM

one day at a time, one step at a time! I lost my mom, she was best friend but we push forward and know that HE carries us all the time. I am sorry for your loss, if you need to talk please message me, hugs to you!!!