The struggle

[kristina_1988]

 I saw the movie The Persuit Of Happiness when it first came out but I saw it again recently and I'm not usually inspired by movies, but this movie really made me think that if this guy can make it, I can too. It's based on a true story ( I know that means it's not all true) but it actually gave me a little motivation. Lately things have been really shitty. In the past couple of months I have bounced back and forth from place to place...I even had to stay at a homeless shelter with my son. His dad doesn't help too much. He is in a bad situation himself. So now it's all up to me. I'm only 20 years old...I don't know what to do. I'm still naive.

I don't have a car anymore and I am unemployed. I've tried and tried to find a job. I apply everywhere and still I have no job. The only help I have gotten is a place to stay temporarily, with my sister. But I can tell she doesn't want my son and I here. I have done nothing to deserve the shit that I have had to deal with. They say God wont give you something you can't handle but I don't know how much I can take anymore. All I know is that my son is everything to me and I just want to give him the best life possible.

I'm not stupid or anything, I just need a little direction and the money to get a damn car. But that wont happen until tax season.

I'm not one for excuses but how am I supposed to get a job and get my son to day care with no car. There is no public transportation out here either. My plan once I get tax returns is to move back around Marietta, Ga and buy a cheap little car and go back to school. I have been wanting to go to school for the past 2 years and just have not had a way.

I hope things change soon. I always say " If you want something bad enough, you'll do anything to get it". But I am willing to do whatever it takes to get my shit together....well I am not willing to walk with my son in the rain to drop him at day care and I am not willing to leave him with just anybody. AAAHHHH!Damn it.

[foxyladyjoie]

Nov. 12, 2009 at 3:40 AM

im sorry u had to stay in a shelter i wish i could help u but im in arkansas... do u have ur mom u can stay with? i know what its like to not have a car and a job and a son and live far from public transportation and i made it threw and my lifes a little easier now. i seen that movie too it was good. ill pray for u for things to get better! please keep us updated...  im sure things will get easier... ive been in ur shoes its hard but u can only be down so long

[foxyladyjoie]

Nov. 12, 2009 at 3:42 AM

p.s. i was a single mom before i met my husband too without ever receiving a penny of child support