5 years later...

[autiemommy2]

Exactly 5 years ago today, DH and I lost our first child after just 7 weeks. It was so traumatic that we actually separated and started divorce proceedings. I, sadly, attempted suicide. It was a horrible, terrible time for me. I've never gotten over it. I never will. I know my baby is not suffering, but it still hurts - more than I could ever put in to words. We really thought it was a miracle that we even got pregnant since we were both told that we could never have children.

It's been 5 years. We are still together, somehow. We have 3 beautiful sons. But, today, my heart aches for the one that we lost.