Sometimes I wonder...

[serialmommy]

Sometimes I wonder about my life, the choices that I have made.  I wonder if they were the "right" ones.  I know in hindsight I could easily look back at my life and say "what was I thinking?  Why did I do it that way?".  However, at the time, there was no hindsight, it was all "right here, right now" that I made the choices that I did.  I love my family, my life as it is now.  There are things, and people, that are missing from my life that I miss ever so dearly, however I know that in the end, it will all work itself out.  I have to believe that, or the choices that I have made were for naught.  Life is full of challenges, and parenting is one of the super big ones.  And it's one that doesn't go away once the kids reach a certain age.  Hopefully for as long as I am here on this planet, my children will come to me, as their mother, and ask for help and understanding and guidance.  I know that the relationship that I have with my own mother is so severly lacking all of those things.  I just don't want to be my mother when I grow up. 

[BriannasMomma]

Apr. 30, 2007 at 2:10 AM I know how you feel. I am very close with my mom now that I moved 1400 miles away. We were in bad graces for years until she reunited with her first love and got her head out of her ass. She accepts me for who I am and respects the fact that I stood up for myself and my family. She didn't approve of my relationship and was all mad and gloomy. But I think about my life all the time and I mean ALL the time. Sometimes I wish I never moved here and debate wheather or not I want to move back. I started my life over in a new state so my husband can be with his family as his parents are older and sicker. I feel guilty taking my parents only grandchild awway and wonder if that is going to affect myself, her or them in any way. If I take her away from here which is what and who she knows would that affect her or her or my husbands family in any way. The decision we have in life are so many its overwhelming. I believe things happen for a reason and whatever is meant to be will be.

[TheasMommy]

May. 12, 2007 at 2:33 AM I think thats what makes the difference. Wanting it to be different. That was a beautiful post!