Full of Fear

[Ravensong]

Talked to my lawyer today. She says, oh btw looks like you'll be needing people to testify at your custody case in three weeks. Three weeks! What happened to pushing to a settlement? I used to feel so geared up about going to court and exposing him for the terrible father he is, but now I'm just scared. Every time I drop Lilly off now I get nervous. I never know how it's going to be. Is he going to yell at me? Will he be scary nice? Will she come back with horrible rash? He's been leaving me alone lately and I've been fine with that. I know if we go to court he'll lie about me and try and tell them I'm horrible. I'm worried they'll believe him over me and she'll have to go to him more often. Then it'll be over and he'll go back to terrorizing me all over again. I know this is exactly what he is planning.. he'll be betting on the fact that I'm too afraid to relive everything and I'll just give in to him. What happened to all my strength?

[Karamae]

Dec. 3, 2009 at 10:14 AM

Did you have to go to court?  How did it go?  As long as you are honest and don't try to hide anything there is nothing he can do to hurt you.  Hang in there, honey!

[Ravensong]

Dec. 10, 2009 at 9:33 PM

I ended up going. He settled last minute on issues of physical custody which is great, but he wanted outrageous things as far as legal. Now I wait to hear what the judge thinks. I got an ex of his to testify that he tried to kidnap her- this was to show his control and abuse issues, so hopefully the judge will see joint legal custody would just not work! Thank you for your kind words too:D

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