Sometimes I wonder why............

[moodywife]

Life is so hard sometimes. I don't have it easy,but sometimes I think that if it wasn't me going through it,then it would be someone else who isn't as strong. Most of the time I want to just break down and cry. Today I went to a job interveiw,I was sooo excited,it's actually a good job,and I am not qualified. What the hell is that supposed to mean? I go there listen to a guy telling me about his company for an hour and a half and I leave there knowing I won't have the job. All I have wanted for so long is to get a real house with a yeard for my kids to play in. Not an apartment where my neighbors do drugs on their front porch,not somewhere I am depressed to come home to. I know my life could be worse,I see people all the time outside holding signs,no money,no food. I know I could not have had my beautiful babies (who drive me insane) and I am thankful. I am thankful my kids have food in their stomaches,that they have hot water,clothes etc. But I also am wondering when is it going to be my turn? When do I get to go to school? When will I have a good job/ When will we be able to move out of our apartment and into a real house? If I get that I will be complete. I am happy with my life,but sometimes I wonder how much more I can take..................

[kkbird]

Oct. 21, 2009 at 9:59 AM

keep your chin up momma.  I am with you on this. I feel you truely I do.... and I don't know when OUR TIME will be here but when it does..... its gonna be wonderful.....  I'm here if ya want to chat hon,   your in my thoughts, take care