Men cant live with them..cant live without them!!

[mommakitty24]

 OK, so my fiance and I have been together on and off for almost 3 years but Im not sure if it is going to work out. I love him very much dont get me wrong, but I have been through so much because of him and Im not sure how to fully get passed it. We have 2 beautiful kids together and they both love their father so much and need both of us there all the time. Things are really hard right now and I dont know how to talk to him about the things that are gettin to me. I have tried to tell him certain things just piss me off and he doesnt really seem to care.

  Every time I try to talk to him about anything important its like his ears close up and Im talking to a wall. He and I go together in so many ways so well. He still makes me smle and just light up when I see him or if he tells me certain things, but there is so much hurt too. He used to be my rock, the one person I always knew I could go to when I was hurting or upset, but now Im so scared of his reaction I just dont. I try to help him and try to take some of his "load" off but he doesnt come to me anymore. We are happy most of the time (90%) but then there are times when he just doesnt know when to stop playing around and leave me alone to be hormonal!

I know there has the be someone else out there that may have some kind words to tell me. Please just write anything you think of when you read this. I know that every couple goes through hard times but this is really hard. We also want to finally get married some time before the end of the year, so you can comment on that too. Ive been divorced once, but I got married way too young (19) and didnt really know what I was getting into. I just dont want to do that again, but then again I have 2 boys with him and we love each other. Should I just put up with it and keep on truckin or what??? I really do love him, I just want to kill him some days! Help!! If anyone has any advice I would love to hear it.