a little bit of venting, a whole lot of worrying... Can I get your thoughts please?

[MunchiesMom324]

Today is just THE freakin day... Let's start with the unimportant part and then get to the real "kick in the teeth" that I got today.

First:  I'm planning my wedding and trying to find hotels to board up the guests and family members... apparently, every single f*ing hotel in or around the jekyll island/southern GA area is completely booked for that whole weekend.  Ok... and I'm also trying to find a venue for the outdoor beach wedding... (in freakin April... ) and suprise suprise - every venue is sold out.  Go figure.  I am thisclose to just hopping on a plane and going to Vegas.  Screw this wedding planning crap.

Second:  A few years ago we started trying to get to the bottom of my oldest son (Alex) behavior problems... and about a year ago, his Dr. decided to start sending him to specialists... It all started off with super-bad behavior... severe ADHD and all... the neurologist found that he has "almost seizures" (not long enough to be a seizure) and was diagnosed with benign epilepsy.  The MRI (to test for autism?) showed nothing but a severe sinus infection... so that led to a referral to the ENT people.  Well, Alex bruises easily and gets these nosebleeds and so before they can try to take his tonsils out, they had to do blood tests.. Well, apparently, his tests came back a little "abnormal".. and (I dont know why, they wont give me a reason) we have now been referred to the children's cancer center. 

Ladies, I could care about the wedding, I really could... but Alex is my "big boy" and I love him to pieces and the simple fact that they referred him to the CANCER center has me all out of whack.  Worried does not even begin to describe how I feel.  What makes it worse, is that when they got the results back, they rushed the appointment and was able to make it for only a few days later.  Now, granted work wouldnt let me off (with this economy, I couldnt afford to get fired) so I rescheduled it... and now I'm gonna worry for a week before I find out why.  I cant eat, I cant sleep I cant even THINK!!!  I feel like I'm going to be sick...

[Jeana28]

Oct. 26, 2009 at 5:29 PM

oh honey, I've got u in my prayers, I would be freakin out 2! My 10 month old just had her Tonsils and adnoids removed and it was an ordeal(She couldn't come back from the anastheisa on her own!) I know ur Son is # 1, so if u have to just deal with that for now, then put the wedding thoughts to the side(U can always come back 2 that). I hope the Docs keep u informed on what's going on and that ur job can be a bit more flexable for appts like this! I really hope things turn out good 4 u 7 ur family! Keep us posted!  Take Care!