miscarriage

[sugarmagnolia1]

 Yesterday I had a miscarriage. It was the third one I have had. The last one was in early 2006. It started with bleeding and then cramps and then a trip to the ER. I feel kind of numb about it. I know that in a few days I will begin to feel again and it will hurt even more. Mike and I where really excited. It doesn't feel real yet. Thank you to everyone who has sent their thoughts and prayers and love. It means so much to me. It has helped immensely.

 I have decided to focous my energies on something positive. I love running. I am going to focus on a year of running. The time when I was pregnant and I was only running easy runs my ankle got a lot better. I dont want to sit around and be sad and fall into a hole. I want to make myself better. My doctor said if the bleeding has stopped I can still go ahead and run the pumpkin 5k on Saturday.

I have a 5k picked out for November and one for New years eve. Nothing for January yet, a 10k for Feb 28th, 5ks for march and April and a marathon for May. June, July, August and September are 5ks and then we are going to Disney world to run the wine and dine half marathon. November is the 9 mile run for the diamonds and then hopefully another New years eve run.

I feel happy being able to focus on something else. I know it wont always help and I know I cant stuff my feelings away but I have to at least try and do something positive after all this. Thankfully I have found a wonderful therapist who will help me work through all of these feelings and hopefully the numbness.

[mmoleader]

Oct. 27, 2009 at 3:39 PM

I am so proud of you!

[Princessofscots]

Oct. 27, 2009 at 3:47 PM

What a wonderful way to look to a positive.

((hugs))

[Lb128f]

Oct. 27, 2009 at 4:00 PM

I'm sorry. I was so sad when I saw you were headed to the ER. You will be in our prayers.

I think running will be great for you...you enjoy it, it's a healthy thing to do and you are good at it! :-) Take care of you!

[runner-mom]

Oct. 27, 2009 at 4:14 PM

I'm so sorry sweetie, I know how hard this is!   Once again, running comes to our rescue :)  Just another reason I love it so!  Good for you for focusing your energy on something positive.  **HUGS**

[JoyeAustin]

Oct. 27, 2009 at 4:27 PM

I'm sorry for all three losses, Katheryne.  *hugs*

[Momma_Halo]

Oct. 27, 2009 at 4:29 PM

You are an inspiration to me :). I am so sorry for your loss and I am so proud of you for looking toward the positive.

[croneasm]

Oct. 27, 2009 at 5:33 PM

Very happy you have something you can enjoy and put your focus towards.  Good luck with it all and kick some butt running! 

[Guinhyvar]

Oct. 27, 2009 at 7:01 PM

I am so sorry, Katheryne. *hugs*

Thank you for sharing your positive outlook plan. You are an inspiration.

[cleanaturalady]

Oct. 27, 2009 at 7:18 PM

I am so sorry, sweetie.  ((hugs))

[NIKopotamous]

Oct. 27, 2009 at 10:36 PM

I'm so so so sorry!  I didn't even know you were having problems.  I hope you start to feel better very soon.  And good for you for finding something to keep you occupied...that is the hardest part for me.  Love, Nik