Lonely....

[Zippie]

  I just can't seem to get out of this funk lately, My life is so full, I have alot to do everyday but all I want to do is run away. There are only two things that seem to keep me in check these days. Any time I get my oldest great Nephew, he is 2 and tells me I'm his best friend. When I go to the gym, this is something I did for myself cause nobody I know will join. Everybody at the Gym is a stranger, I can get on a bicycle or the treadmill and just go for hours. They are set up to face out the windows, I can see the traffic. I've lost 26lbs in 5 weeks. Good thing is the gym is open 24hours a day. I don't even think when I'm walking, I just keep going. I'm up to 3.5 miles an hour, that's fast walking. It cost less monthly than, one dinner out, a tank of gas, etc. and when I think I've walked enough I remember it took 7 minutes to smoke a cigarette so I go for 7 minutes more. I still can't do the elliptical trainer for more than 7 minutes but I'm getting better.

  It seems now, that people need me more than ever. At the gym I don't have my phone on me, I don't even know the number to the gym, best part is you can't come in unless you have a pass key. this may be the best thing I have done for myself in a long time. Can't sleep anyway, might as well walk!

[PhenominalOne]

Oct. 29, 2009 at 8:47 AM

I am sure you have so much to give (in a good way). In my opinion maybe you should take some time and spread the love and comfort that you crave to children on a sick ward or at a retirement center during the holidays.

In other words donate some of that time, wether it be an hour or two. The thing that we seek are the things that we should give, and we will find what we need in that.

If you are looking for love just find something to do that brings the best out in you, this makes you beautiful to the Man who's looking for you.... perhaps he's lonely too.