I'm a failure

[kcd78]

I really think that I am losing my battle with the marraige Gods. things are really bad at my house. I think that my husband is no longer in love with me anymore.  he doesn't even look at me anymore its like i'm not even there. I havent had a job since October of last year and I havent been able to help out with the bills. And its not like Im not looking I am really I am its just things are not going well right now and we are just going to have to bear thru it like everybody else. I already have low self esteem and looking in the mirror is a painful thing every day. I havent had my hair done in months and I look sloppy and if he is cheating by the looks of his wife (me) he has every right to. I just wish that he would tell me and leave me alone. it wouldnt matter I already feel so alone already. I am unloveable. Even my kids seem to care more about their father than me. I just dont know what I am going to do. I just feel so all alone. so worthless. like a big fat failure.

[Mom2two925]

Oct. 29, 2009 at 11:34 AM

Pull yourself together girlfriend.   Many of us have been there at sometime or another.  Have you thought about creating your own job - if you are having trouble finding work ouside the  home - there are plenty of things you can do from home to generate income.  It sux that your feeling so low and things are going well  - but you have to fight for what you want -  nothing worth having comes easy.    Good Luck with everything .

[babyelrayess]

Jan. 13, 2010 at 1:20 AM

I hope things are better for you in this new year.