Living with Endo and hoping for more!

[tiredmomfor2]

 I have two children and an awesome hubby of almost 8yrs . My son is 4 and my daughter is 2. I have endometriosis. It is not always something that I have to keep at the front of my mind. I had to have surgery to be able to get pregnant with my son, and then my daughter came alone to surprise us! Well it has been two years and I have rarely had to think about the disease I have until recently.

I have been having alot of mood swings and other mounting symptoms. I can't take the regularly perscribed meds because I either can't handle the hormones in them or they make me too sick.  So I have been having to let this run it's course for the time being. We were talking about me having the surgery again in January, but decided that we would prefer to have another baby. We know that we may eventually have to have the surgery again to be able to have more. The doctor has already told me that the clock is ticking...(Thanks Doc!)..and that it will run out around 30.(basically impending hysterectomy) I am 24. We are wanting a bigger family. And all that people have to say to me if I have told them about this it. "Well atleast you got a boy and girl already, you can be done"  I do not understand these comments. Yes I feel truely blessed to have my son and daughter. I thank the Lord everyday. They had originally told me that it probably wouldn't happen.I know they are like my miracle childern.

 Call me spoiled but I want more miracles. I want atleast 4 miracles running all over my house and playing in the yard. Helping them do their school work at home and going to the county fair in the summer. How would these other people who make these comments to me feel if they were told the same thing..."Well atleast you got a boy and girl, you can be done" 

Living with Endo is not a fun thing to do, much like other people with problems. It is painful and emberassing and very heart wrenching at times. I know God made me this way for some reason. So I am trying to live with this the best that I can. I will take the pills and have the surgeries when it is necessary and hopefully just hopefully... there will be more little miracles at my house in 2010!

[uggs-lover]

Oct. 29, 2009 at 8:17 PM

Thank you for sharing your story sweetie. I can't imagine how hard this all is for you....hugs, and I hope that you get to have your other two miracles!!!!!