Why did my baby die?

[mom2hailie]

Yesterday I went for my prenatal and everything was fine. The nurse and doctor heard a strong heart beat, you know 150bmp. Everything was fine yesterday, felt the baby move , nothing was out of place. Today I went in for an ultrasound and some blood work. Well the technician and myself were joking around and she started with the abdominal ultrasound, my ovaries and fallopian tubes looked fine, she went to look at my uterus and there was blood flowing to it.. She looked for the baby but couldn't find anything, so she went and got the doctor who looked at the ultrasound. She couldn't find anything either. Okay by now I am really starting to panick. So she told me and the technician that I needed a vaginal ultrasound. My cervix were fine, ovaries, and fallopian tubes fine. Then she found the baby laying in a ball almost like fetal position. The baby was just laying there like asleep, so the doctor tried to stimulated the baby but nothing happened, she even tried to listen for a heart beat but nothing at all. So I just cried and cried. Well now I am in such shock because Wednesday we heard a strong heart beat and now this. So I got to the doctors in the morning to see if I need a  D &C or if I am to deliver this baby vaginally. I can't do it vaginally, knowing what I know, coming to the hospital to have a baby and not going home with it or the doctors who cannot do anything to help this baby. All I want to know is this a boy or girl so at least we can name this baby so I can have some closure. I stayed to my normal routine today, went and paid bills, grocery shopping , came home, did dishes, gave my daughter her bubble bath and finished her laundry. So now what am I to do? I'll figure this one out slowly, do I cry, get angry or just forgetabout this day as if this is all a horrible nightmare.

[norasmom1229]

Oct. 30, 2009 at 1:46 AM

I couldn't never imagine how this would feel to go through, and wouldn't even venture how to deal with it.  I will keep you in my prayers!

[doodlebopfan]

Oct. 30, 2009 at 1:50 AM

Do you cry, YES, do you get angry, YES, do you let go, if that's what it takes. But wait until your next appt to see what the facts are. I am so sorry that you are going thru this. You are in my prayers.

[thenguyenclan]

Oct. 30, 2009 at 7:43 AM

i am so sorry to hear about your news :-(

i lost my daughter over a month ago.....and thinking about it is still a shock to me :-(  if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me....our babies were chosen for a reason....what that reason is...i have no idea :-(  but one day we will be reunited with them and everything will be alright ^_^

hang in there mama....ill be thinking about you ((BIG HUGS))

[sati769leigh]

Oct. 30, 2009 at 7:51 AM

OMG i am so very sorry

[MSugarKane]

Oct. 30, 2009 at 8:04 AM

I am sorry this happened to you. I lost my third child at 16 weeks, never finding out 'why'.  These things just happen.  Do grieve, let yourself feel sadness because its normal. It is a great loss.  

[6under1roof]

Nov. 3, 2009 at 3:31 AM

omg i am so sorry. i will pray for you