Day 31.. I keep losing days.

[Dannille33]

Well, what a blustery day today is. I can't believe it rained most of yesterday. It came down in buckets and so with the wind and rain it made for a boring, wet, uneventful day. The trees are all bare now, and the corn needs combined, the sky's turning that grey color and that only means one thing. YOU WONT FIND ME SAYING THAT WORD THOUGH..lol

Yesterday was pretty good to say the least though, I formed a new group that a few of my journal readers as well as supportive mom/friends thought would be a great idea. I took them up on it and it felt good to start something that would help others. If only I could get the word to spread like wild fire.  Just in case you are a reader of my journals here's the link http://www.cafemom.com/group/107780

It's focused on mom's with anxiety, stress, panic, depression. Pretty much the definition of a mom.. although I know there is so much more to us. It's just after a while parenting wears on you..

Ok .. going on.. my son and I decided to do a bit of grocery shopping and that's enough to make you depressed in todays economy. I mean here in this small town things are pretty expesive.. grrr I hope at some point something happends. From  the economy going back to par or the lord coming so we don't have to suffer anymore. Either way I would be happy.

After groceries we got home to bill collectors calling.. mind you I was paying bills when they called. Go figure. I don't know what's worse telling someone your going to send them a payment or them getting nasty with you for something they did wrong like over charging you. GRR That would be the dish bill. Then a bill from years ago that belonged to my husband called. I told him he was sleeping and had to work at 12 hour shift. Well they didn't care go figure, they wanted to talk to him .. I said you want the money your gonna have to let him sleep or he can't work. Duh.. She shut up after that. Bills along with life are so stressful. As I work though this there are days when I think stress, anxiety and panic are like a chisle to my soul, piece by piece they are taking parts of me that I once felt good about. There are times when I try to med that part yet I am not strong enough. I know I will get there. I have the support, the friends, the doctor, the therapist and the tools.

Now to get them all bundled together and working like a fine machine.. LOL

Last night I was so sleepy I wanted to go to bed but I had to make cookies. Needless to say when they were made and frosted I was alseep like a baby.. something about the way the wind whistles through the leaveless trees at night. The way the shees are nice and cold.. Im warm blooded so I don't care for a warm bed.. lol

When I woke up this morning I was glad to hear no more rain. Though the clouds are still dreary looking and wind still a blowing. The kids were sluggish of course it's Friday so they know tomorrow is a sleep in day.. YEAH!  My son the middle child 11 yrs old was upset. I didn't have a costume for him to ware and my little 4 yr old is using an old one we had a pumpkin it's a little big but he is sold on it.. LOL Anyway I reminded my 11 yr old in my day we made ours we just made it work. We didn't pay such a price to wear something that is cheaply made and costs 20$ .. that's just silly. Last year I made his costume and he was a great looking football player his pic is on my profile. So after his spat this morning I spiked and sprayed his hair green and orange and tied a bandana around his neck.. told him he was a club kid. LOL I mean I only had 5 mins to put it together.. LOL he was happy after that .. LOL so now I am fighting with my 4 yr old whom wants the pc. So I better close.

I do hope you check out my group, I would love to watch it grow and help so many out there that need it. Don't want till it's to late, till it's a disorder. It can really cause havoc on you and your life and your loved ones. It can also make you very sick!

Again here's the link ! http://www.cafemom.com/group/107780...

Have a good safe trick or treat... and I can't wait to see some pictures. .. when people post them..

much love 2 all of you mom's out there .. God Bless

[Lb128f]

Oct. 30, 2009 at 10:45 AM

Voted POP....I think the group is a great idea!!

I'm glad you were quick thinking this AM with your 11 year old! Good idea! I agree on the cost of shopping for groceries...yikes!

And...on the collector's...why do you even answer the phone? I'd let the machine pick up...you know what they want...you've (I'm sure) already told them what you can do...don't even take on that stress, you know? They will leave a message...and if you don't want them to call...you can send a letter telling them they can contact you through mail only. http://www.debtconsolidationcare.com/contact-creditors.html

Hope you all have a GREAT day!!

[burgandyrain]

Oct. 30, 2009 at 11:32 AM

I am joining your group!!  I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder for 7 years now.  Sometimes its hard to find someone that can really understand what a panic  attack feels like. I am glad I found you today!!