I Surrender!

[sumatra1111]

Earlier this month, I thought I was suffering a nervous breakdown. Thinking that a walk in the woods would help, I soon found myself face-down on the side of the path, crying out to God to take over all the tasks in my life. I had become responsible for too many tasks and it was suffocating me!

This must have been one of those moments that Joyce Meyer refers to in "Be Anxious For Nothing: Deliverance From Worry, Anxiety, & Works of the Flesh." Ms. Meyer is talking about people needing to submit to the Spirit rather than the Flesh (meaning our own will). I thought I had... But the taste of the dirt I was eating that afternoon was a clear sign that I hadn't.

Two hours ago, I should have been scrambling to prepare for tonight's Halloween gathering at my home. But instead, I played a board game with my son. One hour ago, I should have been scrambling to prepare for tonight's Halloween gathering, but I decided to sit in worship instead. Right now, I should be scrambling for tonight's Halloween gathering, but I choose to share this blog with other moms who scramble all the time....at work, at home, in their communities, and even at church.

No more scrambling. Last time I hosted a get together, I became so anxious that I managed to get vertigo and had to lay down while my husband scrambled to feed our guests. This time, I'll do things at my own slow pace, enjoying every moment. And the stuff that doesn't get done? Oh well.