Update to losing my baby.

[mom2hailie]

It has been three days since we learned of losing our baby and it has gotten easier just a bit. I think with having the strong support around me it has been easier. I went to Southview Maternity and Out Patien surgery   to have my D & C performed by Dr Byrerly and I will say this, everyone at the hospital treated me so kindly. As weird as this may seem, I had a wonderful time. The nurses , doctors, and even the anestesiologist made me feel so loved. My husband and I was told to find a neutral name for the baby since they couldn't tell the sex of the baby, so at least we could have some closure. So now we are in the process of looking for something that fits with this little one. I want to nickname the baby "Tiny Dancer." because the baby moved around so much and tickled my tummy. I took a hot shower last night and looked at myself in the mirror for the first time since Thursday. What is the hardest part right now is looking at my stomach and breast. My body had changed so much, having the belly, the larger breast, just keeps me hoping that well there is a baby but I know the baby is gone. So now the hard part comes in, telling our 2 1/2 year old daughter that the baby went to heaven. Someone told me to tell her the baby is sleeping but why say that when it might scare her into not wanting to sleep. I am physically sore from inside out, I'm not bleeding anymore , which had stopped, I'm cramping a lot and my body is just aching all over. I guess all in all, I am doing okay..

[ironkitten]

Nov. 1, 2009 at 2:20 PM

I feel your pain.  Prayers to you.