I'm mad, sad, hurt and confused!!!

[Kilahs_mommy_06]

So here's the story...

My hubby and I have been trying to concieve for 3 months now and haven't had any luck. We both want a baby so bad and can't wait to have our first child together. (we have children with other partners.) Well anyway... His sister who has 3 kids, 3 difrerent baby daddy is ... pregnant again with a 4th mans child!!! and this will be her 7th pregnancy. she's had 3 abortions that we know of and this might be her 4th!!! I hate her for aborting these babies. She is so damn irresponsible!  She isn't a very bright crayon if you know what I mean! She's a horrible mother. Scream at her kids, spanks them when they "ANNOY" her and drinks constantly and smoke weed around them!!!  I spend my days off watching her kids because she doesn't have custody of them, her parents do. So I watch them while they work  and then when it's the kids turn to spend with her and she has to work the kids get sent back to me. I also have a job and I work 3   12 hr shifts at a hospital and if I get called in for a 4th day... I can't take it because I'm watching her kids!  I can't make the money I want to because I'm too busy picking up her slack and I have asked her to use protection not only as a form of birthcontrol but to keep STD's away. But she's older than me and thinks she's smarter than I am. Her answer to me when I asked her about STD protection was,"oh, I'd know if I had an STD." of course you'd know you dumb bitch! But by that time you are already infected!!!!!!!! OMG! And I have explained every part of her pregnancy so far to her because she knows nothing about it. Her mom wonders if she even knows how she made this or any of her other babies, that's how dumb she is!  I had to explain to her what the light pink blood was, I had to explain that you CAN'T EVER get a false positive and other simple symptoms and signs because she still doesn't believe she's pregnant! I saw the test! It's POSITIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've asked her not to abort the baby, she may or may not listen to me. She's talked about naming it... this is how uneducated she is... for a girl she wants to name it Mystery and the reason behind this choice name she said this... "because it's a mystery"... what's a mystery...?  how she got pregnant? how anyone could ever willingly want to sleep with her without being  drunk or under any-other mind altering substance? What's a mystery?

I just need to vent. I'm only as pissed off as I am because this sorry excuse of a woman can spread her legs to any guy in sight and get pregant and I want to bring a 2nd baby into the world as a sign of love and happiness and as of today I haven't been able to do that! In 2 1/2 years she has been pregnant 5 times she kept the 1st one, aborted the last 3 and she isn't sure what to do with this 5th pregnancy. And guess what! All 7 of the pregnancies... the dad's were all different men! 

I just don't understand how someone with such low morals, who smokes and drinks most of the day, and sleeps with random people on a daily basis can be blessed with the gift of life growing inside of them and just abort the fetus like it's not a big deal and then people like me who are actually in a life long committed loving relationship can't get pregnant right away or even at all.

It says woman shouldn't be over weight, drink, smoke, drink caffine, etc., etc., when trying to conceive. So I quit smoking cigarettes, I don't drink alcohol, I cut back to less than 4 cups a coffee a WEEK, and I've maintained a healthy weight and still not pregnant. HER on the other hand is pregnant, 120 pounds over weight, eats unhealthy, chain smokes and smokes pot, and drinks almost daily AND SHE"S NOT EVEN TRYING TO GET PREGNANT!!!!!!!! She's just sleeping around without using protection!!! She has told me she doesn't want this baby!  I'm the one over here asking her to keep it!   I don't even know why! The baby would be better off without her but I know my mother-in-law will raise this baby too and I just HATE abortion!

I'd give anything within reason to have a baby growing inside of me and she can just so easily toss this baby out the back door like it's not a big deal! I hate her!

Tags: abortion, pregnancy, stupidity

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[ediswife]

Nov. 2, 2009 at 1:35 PM

wow... so sorry! This is def. complicated. I wish i had some good advice for you. Sounds to me like social services need to get involved for the sake of the kids! I understand your frustration completely though about her being prego and your not. Thats the way i feel when i see a woman that has no business being a mother getting prego...and then you have so many woman that would give anything for a baby and try for so long. Just doesnt seem fair at all.  My hubby and I are on our 2nd mth of TTC and im already impatient! Dont worry it will happen... prob just not in our timing! Baby Dust to you and hope the other situation works out!