I'm Starting Over From Scratch!

[Kelley6470]

WOW! Its been like ages since I was last on CafeMom. Alot has happened in the past few months. As many of you know shortly after I lost my job I had no choice but to move back to Sarasota to my mom's house.  That lasted there for about a month. I did land a great job that I'm very happy with. I work at Green World Home Cleaning based in Sarasota. Mon-Fri job, no weekends and holidays. A few days after I started working my mom and I had a huge fight and I was kicked out. So I moved in with my sister and her drunk boyfriend. That lasted there for a few more days until he came home from work drunk one night and decided its time for me to move out the next day. Yes I was appreciative of the short time my sister and mom allowed me to stay on their couch but what I dont appreciate is the way I was treated by my mother. She said and done things that no mother should do. Thats another story that for now I choose to keep to myself.

So what did I do? I called Corey upset and in distraught. He talked to his uncle who had a spare room in his house. Corey and I moved in with his uncle and pay him rent until after the New Year when we both have enough $$ to get a place of our own. I still work in Sarasota without a car. I take the bus mon-fri back and forth to work. Its not too bad riding the bus. Cheaper then gas for sure. $3 bucks a day.

 I had to put al my things into storage when I made the bad decision to move back to Sarasota with my family. Im talking about complete furniture sets, and other personal sentimental items that cant be replaced. Well because I was out of work for 4 months I wasnt able to pay for my storage and lost it a. Yes everything is gone. Hard to believe that I am starting all over again from complete scratch.  I even lost Rascal who I had in my life for amost 15 years. He got old and we we know how that ended. I remind myself often when I get tro missing Rascal that I gave him a GREAT life with me. I treated my cat as a kid. ( discipline and rewards ) But the way I see it now is it can only get better from here, right? GOD I hope so! Anyways...thanks for letting me vent a bit....it does help.

To those of you who are going through what I am going through...keep your heads up and keep in mind it can ony get better from here. Theres always someone else out there who is in a worse situation than you are. Keeping those thoughts in my mind helped me to cope with things and losses of my own. I also learned that you cant always depend on those that you would expect to. Dont let anyone tear down your dignity, no matter if its friends or family.

I am thankful for what I do have left and thats Corey. Corey has been by my side from the day we met. Hes done all that he possiby could to help me out in the last 9 months. And that includes helping me to pay utilities food and etc while I was laid off trying to save my house.  More then some family members had done in my lifetime. Its sad to say that but its the truth. Even my own son Jimmy has had nothing to do with me since he moved in with his dad almost a year ago. What I have been through this year has made me stronger. Yes there are a few people that must be proud of themselves for breaking me down the way they did. But that is something I willl always remember. Forgive and forget? Eventually I might forgive over time but to forget is something I will never do.

So things are slowly looking up for me. I'm back in Port Charlotte with Corey where I belong. I have a job that I'm happy with even though its a long travel back and forth. It sucks to be starting over again but at least I'm doing it with the I am in love with..Corey!

Thank you to those who were supportive and you all know who you are. Thanks for listening and I'll alk to ya a laters! *HUGS*

Tags: family, friends, moms, support, job loss, money

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