why i now hate alcohol...vent

[mandielynn23]

so my stupid mom starts dronking and just because she can't control a situation she gets all pissed off and says nasty things to hurt the people in the situation. she's been an alcoholic since i was little. i remember being 7 or 8 yrs old and waking up to a cop blinding me with his flashlight because my parents were fighting and she was drunk.  i can't even count how many times the cops have gotten called because of her stupidity. i've even called them a few times because i was so scared she would hurt me. when i was 13 she tried to run me over with her car! i ran back inside and called 911 and they didn't even do anything! she made it look like i was being unruly. now i live with her, again and my stepdad. my stepdad drinks alot too, but only beer and he is very shy. he would never hurt anyone or act like an ass when he's drinking. so i moved back in with them because my douchebag roommate got me pregnant and i had no place to go and wasn't going to stay there after his dog bit me. when i was 4 months preg, she freaked out on mothers day. she had been drinking of course, first a bloody mary (vodka) then beer then a margarita! then she went to the tanning bed so the heat made it worse. i don't know exactly what set her off, but she was throwing things and breaking things. i felt like i was little kid again, i was so scared that i took my dog and went to visit some freinds. now i have my baby and i breastfeed and use supplements a couple times a week. she does not know the first thing about breastfeeding and she says i'm starving him! i know he's getting enough because he has plenty of wet/dirty diapers and he's 2 oz above his birth weight at 2 wks old. i just don't understand why alcohol is more important to her than her own family. it makes me sick, i can't wait to get back to work and start saving for my own place. she's always trying to overheat him too! just because it's 40 degrees outside doesn't mean it's 40 degrees inside! warm footed pjs and a swaddle blanket is plenty when it's 70 degrees in the house. she tried to hold him too after she went a drank a monster margarita last wk when i told her i don't care if she's had one beer, i don't want her holding my son when she's been drinking.

[sati769leigh]

Nov. 4, 2009 at 6:00 PM

Have you ever been to Alanon? I woudl really super suggest it. family members who are alcoholics spread the disease. and even if you dont drink, you do have issues due to HER drinking. alanon will help you deal with those issues and learn how to deal with her in a healthy manner.

[littlemommy81]

Nov. 5, 2009 at 12:40 AM

Sweetheart I love ya like a sister and If you ever need anything i am her for you. I am sorry that she hasn't stopped like she promised you would think that she would if she loved you or Eli. It makes me angry doesn't she see that you and he there with her is a gift and not something to take for-granted. Message me if you need me. I all so agree with the person above you sould look in the ALANON! Tell her if she doesn't stop then she can't take care of him when you go back to work. I will take care of hin if you want me to. I know how much he means to you.