I am so sick of everyone being sick.

[MOmomof8]

My 3 year old granddaughter was taken to the doctor today, she has H1N1.  So my husband could have it & I could've had it last week.  I can't stand to see kids so sick.  Rose's eyes look so pettiful.  All she wants to do is sit on my lap.  She did ask Grandpa if she could sit on his lap which lasted only for a minute or two.  As soon as she knew mommy & daddy was home she was ready to go upstairs.  I don't hear the pitter patter of her little feet like I usually do.  Tomorrow I have to watch both of Vicki's kids cause her husband is sick with the flu now.  She don't want him to watch JJ until he starts taking his medicine.  I think her kids were the first one's sick.  I really don't feel up to watching any kids either but their parents have to work so I do it any way.  It just strikes me odd that I have to watch JJ the week after I'm sick & don't watch Chris.  It seems like her husband gets sick about a week after I do & I don't ever see him or talk to him.  I sure hope Chris is feeling better in the morning than he did yesterday morning.  He was so tired but wouldn't stay asleep for more than 5 minutes.  He cried most of the time & I felt like crying with him.  I just couldn't do anything for him, he was so unhappy.   If I'm lucky both of them will sleep most of the time.   It's a good thing my husband is gone most of the morning.  He wants to tan her butt.  She knows right from wrong & does the wrong anyway then screams like a bangee when you correct her.  Her mom has been trying to take her pacifer away from her but someone keeps giving it back to her cause it's the only way she will stop screaming.  It makes me mad when I watch her & have to deal with her without it then the next time I see her she has it again. 

So since Rose is sick I won't be going out of town with my dh.  I thought we could have our anniversay celebration while we were out of town but I was reminded that we have Rose on Friday night & Saturday.  We were going to just take her with us but now that she is sick that's out of the question.  So may while we are in Hannibal over Thanksgiving we can do something.  Not likely cause my bil & neice will be there & we only see them once or twice a year.  One of these days we will be able to do our anniversary thing, sooner or later.   Now that I am able to drive to Cape, I'm sure they will be calling for me to watch Elias sometime soon.   Since I watch Chris on Saturday morning, I'll only be able to watch Elias on Saturday night or Tuesday night since I don't have him on Wednesday either. 

Di called me tonight.  She told me she put the kids Halloween pictures up so I can see them.  I'll have to check the others to see if my other grandkids have Halloween pictures up yet.  I have so much to do & little time to do it.  It doesn't help that I forget what I want to get done most of the time.  I have tried making lists but then I lose them so why make them.  I would tie strings around my fingers but I would forget what they stand for.  I keep thinking about doing the calendar on the fridge to remember my doctor appointments but I keep forgetting to do it.  I hope I don't forget my appointments.  I also have to remember to take my exrays back with me.  I had them to take to a surgeon in St Louis earlier this year to see about having my left breast removed & reconstruction.  I was going to have it done this past summer but when my mom died, I cancelled it.  I was just looking at them & there are 3 spots that they are watching which is in the same places I have been feeling lumps at.  I know I'll have to go back for a sonogram which I wish they would just schedule both of them the same day & get it over with.  I've been going through this for 6 years now.  I've even had a few lumps drained.  I've had to have a mamogram every other month for 18 months one time.  That is why I was wanting to get it removed.  I'm so tired of worrying about it.   Maybe next summer I'll be able to get it done.  The surgoen wanted me to lose some weight first which I am finally doing.  I haven't checked my weight in 10 days now but I had lost 3 1/2 pounds the first 2 weeks I was trying.  I so wish I could just wish the weight off.  I never thought I would have this problem when I was younger.  I was always thin sometimes super thin.  I don't want to be like that but I would like to be a size 14 again.  That seems to be the norm these days.   That's what my mom wore & I could have more than just a few of her clothes.

I dreamed my mom called me last night.  It was so nice to hear her voice & talk to her again.  I forgot what all was said.  I do remember she asked me to do something or about something, I just can't remember now.   It felt so real.  May I dreamed it cause I haven't talked to my stepdad much in the past week.  I was so sick last week & thought I was going to lose my voice.  He called me yesterday to check on me.  He is having surgery next Tuesday on his toe.  One of us will go with him to drive him home.  I hope he heals as fast as he thinks he will.  The thought of him sitting alone in the house not being able to do much bothers me.  He doesn't like to be at home much since my mom died.  I can't really blame him.  When I go over there it feels like she is still living there.  I bought her a digital camera last year & she didn't even get a chance to use it.  Now my stepdad plans to use it so I wish I hadn't bought a pink one.  It doesn't seem to bother him though.  We still have to go over to set up the computer for him & teach him how to use it.  I need to find out what ink cartridge his printer uses & buy him some so he can learn to print pictures out or anything else he wants.  One of us will have to be there when he gets the internet turned on cause the last time the tech fried his computer so we aren't letting that happen again.  He was so stupid, it took him a few days to even get things connected.  His company should have had to buy him a new harddrive atleast but he didn't say anything to them.  He didn't understand it enough to fight with them.  At the time, he didn't have much time to do anything but take care of my mom anyway.  Now he has too much time.  Now that I am driving again I can stop over there once in awhile again.  I would like to get some of my mom's Christmas jewelry.  I want to get the things I bought her, too. 

Well, I want to go catch up with other things on the internet.  I'll be around again tomorrow, I hope.