The Tale So Far

[nicholewalters]

Ok, so this is my first journal post so lets bring everyone up to speed. I currently a SAHM, I have been out of work since November of last year. I have tried for a year to find work, have applied to I don't know how many jobs and nothing has come up. I had a job offer from Verizon Wireless, but found out the school that I had gotten my diploma from had no accredidation, so the offer was rescinded, so I went this year and got my GED. Then I tried to call them and apply again, but I never got a phone call. So, I am home for now taking care of the kids, the DH, and the house.

I am a big girl, I have been steadily gaining weight since I had my youngest daughter 9 years ago. So, I am very overweight for my age/size which doesn't help the depression/lethargy I tend to get all the time. Its like I have so many plans for this house, but then when it comes to the execution of those plans it doesn't always go through. I never seem to have enough energy except for the occasional boost I get sometimes when I get really hyped up over something. So, besides the fact that I can't find a job, I end up feeling like a total failure when I can't even move my butt to keep up with everyone.

Also, when I do clean up everyone just seems to come behind me to mess it up, I have two daughters 13 and 9 and my DH has a daughter-17. I get attitude from the 13 year old, the 17 year old I just try and be nice so I don't get attitude from her and my 9 year old is a true space cadet. Since I am at home, and yes ladies before you bash I do think that I should be cleaning most of the house by my self and cooking, etc. But, noone hardly lifts a finger to help. I can make my kids help me, but his daughter cleans the bathroom as fast as she can but it still has to be gone over because she doesn't clean the tub or properly clean the floor. My DH just says it my job because I'm at home but I never seem to be enough to keep the mess at bay, its like I'm just keeping it from being a complete mess, but it never seems to get done or spotless.

So, that is where I am right now in life so that you ladies know so when I do more posts you guys will  have a little background on me. Bye.

Tags: life, work, home, cleaning, background

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