Have just had it....

[Blame_Me76]

 

Here I sit, contimplating things I really shouldn't... Wishing I could DIE(YES I SAID THAT) Having my insides PULLED APART... Wanting more then ANYTHING to believe this person, but havin someone else try & pull us apart.... I am to the point I ask myself, why would ANYONE be truthfull.. If you HONESTLY look at life... PPL know they REALLY don't get JUDGMENT till DEATH, So if they are, CHEATING, STEALING, LYING, MURDERING... Whatever hte case is, it doesn't matter... Yes EVENTUALLY they have to answer to GOD, BUT RT NOW they can ENJOY their SIN! I've seen it OVER & OVER again, in coupkes I would of NEVER thought it happen to... Now I'm being destroyed from within by FAMILY members... Having to CHOOSE whom I believe, both parties invoulved have LIED to me SOOOOO MANY TIMES!!! When does the LIES STOP?? Why won't GODS VENGENSE make it OBVIOUS WHO TO BELIEVE?? Why cant I JUST BE LOVED FOR ME???? Thats ALL I HAVE EVER WANTED.... Was for SOME ONE, ANYONE to JUST LOVE ME, CAUSE THEY WANT TO!!!! Not cause they HAVE TO!! Am I SOOOO HORRIBLE??? I wish I was DEAD, then there would be NO MORE SORROW...
Happy 16th Bday Ashley, I did LOVE YOU, NO EXCEPTIONS, just as I do your Sister Lissa
11-05-93 to 07-09-95

Tags: depressed, cheating, family

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[christ4moms]

Nov. 7, 2009 at 6:43 PM

He said, She said things are always hard to deal with. I pray that I'm not involved, but if I am, I'll be more than happy to clear things up.

WE have been more active in our church, nad that is such a blessing. We are praying for you, and I'll mention you at church tomorrow!

[Blame_Me76]

Nov. 9, 2009 at 3:42 PM

Nah its not u. My BIL is trying to say my DH said something to my sis, & now R is NOT aloud over in their house cause of whatever has been said.. I don't care to know, cause i know R isn't cheating on me, or doing ANYTHING wrong, BUT IT INFURIATES ME, that between MY family & YA'lls FAMILY EVERYONE wants to BREAK US UP!! UGH!! But u didn't do anything at ALL!! Neither did ur family, INFACT EVERYONES visit in FL went AWESOME!! Gee & I accually GOT ALONG!! Who says PRAYERS DON'T WORK?>?? Cause theyre WRONG!! LOL thanks for the prayer requests at church! LOVE ya!

(Original Poster)

[christ4moms]

Nov. 10, 2009 at 1:09 PM

That's awesome! That the trip in Fl went good. I didn't even know that you were going to Fl.