4th Times a Charm?

[peaceandlove628]

Dear Sweet Baby,

I suppose that if it were easy than maybe we couldn't appreciate it as much.  I think about you often, or at least the idea of you, and I wish I could think about more than the idea, but the reality. 

We're not worried yet because many healthy couples try to have a baby for a year or more, and there is nothing wrong with them.  I guess I had just hoped that it would happen right away for us.  I try not to worry about it or think too much about it, but being surrounded by beautiful children and babies pretty much constantly makes it very hard.  Not to mention that my Assistant at work is pregnant, as well as one of my closest friends.  All of these things seem like "signs" telling me that you're coming soon... I hope so!

My assistant tells me that her baby is about the size of a plum.  "I want a plum!" I found myself thinking later that day.  A little plum sized baby to know is growing bigger by the minute and is relying on me to bring it into this world. 

I don't know if I've just been lazy since the days are getting shorter, or if it's such a refreshing change not to have piles of papers and projects due for school after a long day of work, but whatever it is I have been relaxing so much more than every!  I don't really feel guilty about this newfound laziness because I feel like I need to rest up to create a good home for you!  I do get plenty of exercise at work, running after my toddlers all day! 

Anyway, we've been trying really hard to make a baby this month, and I think I timed it just right.  I should find out a few days before Thanksgiving... which gives me.... 18 days to go!  I hate thinking about it in these numerical terms, because it makes me anxious, but at least it gives me something concrete to count in in this crazy mysterious uncontrollable game of Trying To Conceive.

If I get pregnant this month then we could have a baby around the end of next July.  I would be 9 months pregnant at my brother's wedding, of which I am to be the Matron of Honor!  Ha!  Maybe it would be better to hope for an August baby!  In all seriousness though, I truly can not wait for the amazing blessing of a child of our own.