I had my baby girl at 22wks....

[rileysmama8808]

First I would like to say I am sorry-Since having lost Morgan, I haven't been on Cafemom as much. But her is my daughters birthstory.

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Morgan's Memorial Site

http://morgan-meier.memory-of.com/

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This pic was taken the day before I had Morgan...I know it says 20wks, but it was really 22wks.

MorganAnn

Born September 14, 2009 at 22wks

Original due date: January 18, 2010
Type of delivery: Vaginal (without pain releif)
Duration of labor: 4 1/2 hours, 5 minutes of pushing
Weight @ birth: 3.5 ozs
Length @ birth: 7 1/2 inches.

On Monday, September 14, around 9:25am, I started to get cramp, (I thought I had to fart) so I kindda pushed the fart out, and went on doing what I was doing. Then about 5 minutes later I got another one. So went to the bathroom and did my business, and I felt a little better, and again went back to doing what I was doing. Well, the cramps started to closer, and I thought to myself "I bet I am just a little dehydrated" because I didn't eat at all yet that morning. So I went and ate some cereal, and as I ate, I started to time my "cramps" first they were every 3 minutes apart, last about 15-20 seconds. Then by the time I told my mom what was happening, they were every 2 minutes apart, and finally when we got a hold of the Nurse Hotline, they were every 1 minute apart. My doc told me to come up the Hospital ASAP. My Mom and I hopped in the car, and drove 45 minutes to the Hospital.

When we got the Clinic, my doc tried to listen to the heartbeat, but like all the other times she has tried to listen to it, she couldn't find it. (At that time, I still didn't think anything was wrong.) Then she did a cervical exam, and she said that I was pretty much closed, but something was bulging in the middle of my cervix. We went to the Ultrasound room, and the Tech put the transducer on my belly, I could see my little baby wasn't moving. They tried to listen to the heartbeat, but the Tech keep saying she was not in a good position to find it (load of crap). Then the Tech did a quick measurement of the head, and it only measured, 16.4wks. And I started to shake my head "NO." My mom asked me what was wrong, and I said that "The baby should NOT measure that small." The Tech measured the legs, and they measured 18.4wks. Then they did a transvaginal, and my cervix was clearly open, and my baby was no longer thriving inside of me. Before the doctor or tech could say anything to me, I said "She’s gone, isn't she?" And they confirmed that she has passed away about 1-3wks ago. As they finished the ultrasound they said it appears that I had a Placental Abruption. (But after I gave birth, that was NOT the case)

They took me to the Labor and Delivery Floor, and I was put in Room 394. This room has sentimental value. When I was pregnant with Riley, and I was having complications at 17wks, I was in that room for an Examination. Anyways, the Nurses got everything set for me, my mom left to get some lunch, and at the time, I tried to get a hold of Mitchell. I called him for about 45 minutes, and couldn't get him to answer his phone. So I laid down on my bed, and tried to breathe thru the contractions, by that time they were less than a minute apart and very strong. I asked for the Newbane to get some relief, but they couldn’t find a vein to put it in, so by the time they finally got it inserted, I was already pushing. I pushed very gently for about 5 minutes, and at 1:55PM, my Angel was born. She was 3.5oz and 7.5 inches. And at that exact same time, Mitch called me. I told him that our Angel had just been born. He was in total and complete shock.

She was still in her bag of water, when she was born. Her delivery couldn't have been better. My doctor feared I would have to have a D&C, but everything came out. My doctor was able to get Ammonic Fluid, as well as Placental Tissue, for testing to see what was wrong with her. As they cut the water bag open, it was very clear what was wrong with Morgan Ann. She has a severe Cleft Lip and Cleft Palette. Her two middle fingers, on both hands, we still fused together. Her ears and eyes didn't line up, which is a sign of Down Syndrome. And her umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck 3 times very tightly.

I was able to hold her before they took her away to clean and dress her. And she was beautiful, even with all the problems she had, she was beautiful. I touched her little hands and feet, and they were perfect.

I sat in my room with my mom for a few hours, reading over options for funeral/memorial services and whatnot. My dad called, and my mom told him, Morgan was with God.

We had Morgan Blessed (Baptized) by the Hospital Chaplin. We had pictures taken of the ceremony, and then took some afterwards of me holding Morgan and some of her in her little outfit and blanket.

After sometime with Morgan, I asked the nurse to take her away. I got a Pink Heart Shaped box, filled with her outfit, blanket, her hospital bracelet, a seashell (with what she was Blessed with), an Eagle Pin, and a poem.

Morgan is going to have an Autopsy done to see what else could have been wrong with her. After she is released from the Hospital, we are going to have her cremated so that she will be with us always.

Please don’t be sorry for me. I always said God has a plan for this baby, and he did. She is our Angel in heaven, and Morgan will protect us. I am happy, as strange as it sounds. But if you think about it-She would have never had a normal life. God never gives you anything you can’t handle, and God knows that Mitch and I are able to handle this loss.

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October 8th, my doc called me and told me that Morgan was the result of a Patial Molar Pregnancy.

October 22, at my 5wk PP check up, my doc gave us the green light to TTC, but since we are getting married in less than 7 months, we  are going to wait.

xXRenee

Tags: stillbirth, molar pregnancy, 22wks

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[Biostep]

Nov. 7, 2009 at 12:08 AM

I am on my group profile writing this but couldn't wait to go back to my profile I had to read. You are right your baby is in heaven watching over you and your family.

HUGS.

Shell81

[shell81]

Nov. 7, 2009 at 12:14 AM

Ok I came back that was me above.

[Aasiyah]

Nov. 7, 2009 at 12:34 AM

Thanks for sharing your story. 

[PrincessRSX03]

Nov. 7, 2009 at 1:21 AM

You sound very strong!!! Everything happens for a reason. I hope you continue to stay so strong!

[MSugarKane]

Nov. 7, 2009 at 7:12 AM

I am sorry for your loss. 

[emslala]

Nov. 8, 2009 at 12:38 AM

I'm sorry for your loss, but congratulations on your angel.
((HUGS))

[Lb128f]

Nov. 8, 2009 at 1:19 AM

Saying a prayer for your Angel Baby Morgan.

Congratulations on your upcoming wedding.

[ColleenF30]

Nov. 8, 2009 at 9:58 AM

oh mama.  I am in tears.  My son was stillborn at 39 weeks on Sept 22.  You are a strong woman.  Congrats on your upcoming wedding, and if you need an ear let me know.