I am so popular tonight

[MOmomof8]

My dh went to Jefferson City with the track team.  He has called me 3 times already, do you think he misses me?  He will come back tomorrow with an empty bus.  If I had gone we could have made a day of it going through the Ozarks & stopping at yard sales & flea markets.  We would have had the whole bus to full up with stuff.  Plus we would have eaten out 4 times & stayed in a nice hotel.  There's always next time.

Nick, my 23 year old, called this evening wanting me to babysit tonight.  I had to turn him down & I hate having to do that.  Vicki will have her kids here at 5:30 in the morning & I don't feel like driving home that early in the morning, I don't really like driving in the dark anyway.  I told him he could leave Elias here if they wanted to go to Poplar Bluff but that's too far for them.  They would have a 2 hour drive home unless they spent the night here which is always an option.  I am really getting tired of watching Vicki's kids every Saturday morning.  I think I'll tell her to get someone else to watch them that morning.  They were holy terrors this morning.  Chris was so tired & refused to go to sleep so I know he slept most of the afternoon for her.  JJ drives me crazy when she is going to sleep, she makes this horrid noise to put herself to sleep.  I've tried to break her of it but just as I do, she stops coming over & her parents let her do it so it starts all over again, same with her pacifier.  Chris had 3 bottles & I tried to feed him but he didn't want food, just his bottle.  He loves to jump but I can only do it for so long then my arms give out.  He throws a fit when I stop.  He has fallen asleep while I was helping him jump, but still when I stopped he woke up & threw a fit  I need more than just 2 days a week from them.  I would love to have more than 1 or 2 days without any kids but I don't see that happening any time soon, not for awhile anyway.  Her parents work nights, Vicki works mornings & they don't always work on the same days.  I guess that's what being grandma is all about though.  I love spending time with them.  I wish I could spend time with my grandkids in Leavenworth.   I miss them.  I am missing out on watching Nita grow up.  She isn't even going to know me.  I hate that.   Nagi is so cute.  He is letting his hair grow out so he can have a long Mohawk next summer.  His mom is even going to let his hair be kool aid dyed, maybe blue.  When it comes to his hair, he reminds me alot of his daddy but otherwise, he reminds me of his Uncle Nick.  Cody is my talker.  I can call him & he holds the conversation almost all by himself.  I need to call him to ask about Florida.  I've seen the photos on his mom's fb, looks like they had a blast.  I'm sure he could use an hour or two to tell me almost everything.  I've not been to Florida but when I was 8 we went to California, Disneyland.  We also went into Mexico on the way there as well as Phoenix & Las Vegas.  We came back through the mountains.  We had 2 weeks in a car & hotels.  Friends of my parents went with us & their son was 2 at the time.  He was potty trained on the trip.  He was like a brother to me.  I don't see him much anymore.  We fought like brother & sister too.  He was always following me around which I didn't really like and yet when I was 16 I took him with me at times when I didn't have to even.  Go figure. 

I stepped on the scales yesterday morning.  Guess what....I have lost a total of 7 pounds.  It's been 4 weeks but they say you should take it off slow.  I am counting calories & fat.  I am sticking to eating just the recommended size serving which cuts out alot of my eating.  I always think their servings are too small but somehow they are fine to me now.  I only eat breakfast, a snack, & supper.  I've been eating like that for a long time though.  The serving size makes a big difference.  I want to exercise but I hurt so bad that I just can't do it.  I've changed medicine for my fibromyalgia but this medicine doesn't work near as good as Lyrica does.  But it is alot cheaper & I hate paying $60 or more for 1 medicine.  If it was the only one I took then maybe but it is just one of many.  I love the generic at Walmart, one of my meds are free.  The rest of them are $4 or $5, alot easier on the pocket book.  I've also started drink diet sodas but only 1 can a day.  I still have to cheat once in awhile & get a pepsi or coke.  I hate diet sodas but diet Dr Pepper & A&W diet rootbeer isn't too bad.  I really liked the diet Dr Pepper that had chocolate & cherry flavors in it but can't fine that anymore.  I have an appointment with my shrink on Monday.  I wonder what he will say about my losing weight.  He put me on wellbutrin to help with lose weight, it also helps people stop smoking & it's for depression.  I don't smoke, never have, but some people do take it to help them stop smoking.  Alot of my meds have weight gain as a side effect so I think this medicine & those others just counteract each other but the others have win out in the past.  I was on it before & lost 40 pounds before the doctor took me off of it cause it stopped working on my depression.  I hope I can stay on it longer this time.  I actually like this doctor.  I like the whole clinic.  My doctors are together under one roof & share computer systems so one can just look up to see what the other has done.  They also do my mammograms which I have to go for on the 19th.  I'm sure I'll have to have a sonogram too, I did last year & every year for the past 7 years.  I just hope I remember to take my film back with me when I go.  I got a nice little reminder letter about the annual tests I have to have.  They also call a day or two before your appointment to confirm that you will be there.  That's really good when I forget what time or day I'm suppose to be there.  They actually take care of you & help you to remember things.  I always seem to forget when I am due for a pap smear or colonoscopy.  I hate those things.  But they are a must.  I had an aunt died with colon cancer, she was just 30 years old.  All kinds of cancer run in my family, my mom's & my dad's.  So I really try to stay on top of things. 

I so miss my dh.  I'm glad he doesn't work a regular job where he is gone 8-9 hours aday.  The hour & a half that he works in the morning & again in the afternoon isn't bad.  Then, having summers off & holidays off is nice too.  So we just plan around his work schedule when we want to go out of town.  He has a 3 or 4 day weekend almost every month.  I may complain at times but my life is really good.  My dh & I are so much alike that we hardly ever fight.  Well, we really don't fight, we just get in bad moods from time to time.  We are more grumpy with each other than fight.  We tease each other alot, him more than me.  It's a far cry from my other two marriages.  I was yelled at, called names, hit, cheated on, lied to, put down, told I was stupid, told what to do & when to do it, etc.  They were very controlling type of men.  In fact my 2nd husband told me after we were married that he had followed me around to be sure I wasn't cheating on him, can you believe that?  If we hadn't been married when he told me, we would never have gotten married.  He was so inscure.  And now his 2nd wife is cheating on him.  He is saying things to her that I used to say to him, like, if you are going to cheat, don't hide it...let me know so I can deal with it.  It's only a big deal if you are hiding it.  Honesty is always best.  I can handle anything as long as you are honest with me.  The only time he didn't cheat on me was when I was going through chemo & really wanted him to go elsewhere for sex.  The doctor even told him not to have sex with me bc I was toxic with the drugs in my system.  It could have killed him if they got into his system.  I was being monitored, he wasn't.  Who was really the stupid one here? 

That's enough for tonight.  Talk at you later, gater.

[ratchetgirl]

Nov. 7, 2009 at 12:27 PM

Good job on the weight. I LOVE diet chocolate dr. pepper but it is hard to find. It is so sweet, that it tastes like a desert to me. My sister called it sex in a can =) When I first went to diet pop, I would do half and half. I like fountain drinks best, so it helped me make the switch.

I bet the photos from Disney are great. We plan on going next fall with the kids, and can not wait. We are going to go all out, because I think it we will only go once.

I am glad you found  a man that makes you happy. It does make all the difference in the world to be in a good marriage.

[MOmomof8]

Nov. 7, 2009 at 11:50 PM

I agree with your sister. It is wonderful, I hope they will have it out more during the holidays.

I think all kids should be able to go to Disney World or Disneyland once in their lives.  Travis & Nathan went with the band in high school & when it was Nick's turn, I was going to go with him.  But he dropped out so I didn't get to go.  I hope my kids get to take my grandkids someday.  I'm sure you & your family will love it & take lots of pictures that you will share. 

A good man does make a big difference in marriage, so does a good woman.  I think I am getting better with age.   He seems to think so.  I love how he calls me when we are apart.  He called me 4 or 5 times today & was home before 5 pm.  My other husbands did that but for a different reason, to check up on me.  We tease each other about having a boyfriend/girlfriend.  That's what we are when we are apart & calling each other, like when we were dating.  It's just something we have fun with.  We also have date nights. 

Did you hear that Applesbees is having a special for all the vets & current servicemen.  They eat free on November 11th which is Veterns Day.  I'm hoping we can go.  You should take Jeff.  I heard it on the tv today.

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