Missing Grandma

[tonisalex]

Grandma, it has only been a month since you left to be with the Lord and all of our loved ones that have gone over the years as well. But it still feels like yesterday that I got that phone call that you were gone and it still hurts just as bad. People keep saying that over time it will become easier to deal with but how much time, how long will it take for me to realize that you are not just gone for a time and that I am waiting for that do for you to come back so I can pick up the phone and call you and tell you what your great grand kids are doing? How much Tony has progressed in school, that I got the confirmation from a doctor that he does have autism and I still don't know what to do about it, that Isabel is being a drama queen, or that Alex fell yet again and now has yet another bruise on his head. I am so lost on the genealogy, I have wanted so many time to pick up the phone and call you, to ask you about this person, what do I do about this. Oh and grandma you would love the new website they have for the family history threw church, so much better then the old one. But I guess just like everyone has said it will take time, just how much, will be for my heart to figure out on its own. I miss you so much, it hurts so bad, I just don't know what to do anymore for it. I look at my kids and in so many ways I see you in them, I hear your little voice in the back of my head telling me just to love them, no matter what the day brings, I now see what you mean to cherish every moment with them, I am no longer taking my Saturday morning for granted, if they want to craw in bed with me, they do and I love it every single time, cause I know one day, that time will be gone. Grandma, know that I think of you all the time. You were my best friend, my shoulder for anything and everything. I will never let my kids forget you. I am happy that you have found peace and comfort but know that I miss you and is hurting as well now. I love you!

RIP Linda "grandma/ggma" Chatwin

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[Kellyjude1]

Nov. 8, 2009 at 9:00 AM

I am so sorry for your loss.  My grandmother passed away this year will be 2 years she was 95 years old. Grandma's always have that special way to make life easier, they always have the best advice, and it is so easy to miss that.  Always know your grandma's spirit lives within your heart she may be gone, but never forgotten.  Every Christmas Eve we keep our grandma with us.  We send white balloons up to grandma in Heaven.  Seeing everyone gathered around outside with white balloons, all her children, grandchildren and great grandchildren in remembrance of grandma is such a beautiful thing.  I hope you can find and cherish the happy moments you had with grandma that is what matters the most!