My OCD is no reason for your Ignorance!!

[nightowl32779]

So today we took the kiddos to see a movie and while dh and kids bought tickets and popcorn, I went to use the restroom.  I get done and am minding my own business washing my hands and with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) (and I have a severe case) I tend to wash my hands longer than the rest.  Well a lady walks out of a stall and I didn't even know she was there had barely rinsed her hands because I didn't even hear her until she was getting the papertowel turns to literally gawk and stare at me in complete disbelief.  I mean make it a little more obvious!  Really lady you look to be in your mid fifties and you never seen something as strange in your entire life as my little handwashing ritual?!   Golly I know I am a tad bit wierd but I don't stand out in a crowd really lol!  And I'm not half as wierd as you taking your soda into the stall with you and coming out and barely rinsing your hands, that's just nasty!  So anyway when she seen I saw her staring at me and giving me strange looks like I was deranged or something, she gave me a sympathetic smile!  I mean come on really there is no need to act so damn ignorant.  We all come in all shapes and sizes and we all think and do things differently and honestly lady if you could read into my soul you would know in my short 30 year life I have endured more than you can imagine in your fifties because if you have endured much you wouldn't be so darn ignornaant and I will spare you the details nothing short of a living hell that I endured due to my anxiety (OCD is my way of coping is what I had explained to me, I can control my cleanliness when I feel I have no control over other obstacles in life)and depression.  I didn't choose this and it's not something you can help and I wouldn't wish it on anyone because it really is no fun.   So don't look at me like I'm nuts and I don't need your sympathetic smile because I'm quite ok with it and I finally understand myself.  By the way crazy old lady in my eyes your the nutty one with your ignorant ways and you seem like a dirty pig to me lol!   But still I did'nt gawk at you like that, so I guess that makes me the wiser, bigger person and your old enough to be my mother.   Ughh, I will never get some people and obviously not everyone gets me lol.  Oh well thanks for reading and remember this is just a vent.

[mcqueenmom]

Nov. 8, 2009 at 1:36 AM

great post