Did I scar my boy?

[MamaZena]

Its another beautiful day here so we went to the park after lunch.  It's only about a block and a half from our house so I dont bring the stroller anymore.  My DD is 4 1/2 and DS is 21/2, I think they should both be able to walk that far.  Dom almost always wants to be picked up on that short walk and I usually tell him he can walk to the park or we can go home.  He has walked across town before no problems, I know he can do it.  On the way home we took a little detour to walk on the snow behind the arena and see if the horses were in their field.  It was nap time so I said we had to go home, Dom starting melting down and wanting to be picked up, his boots were very muddy from walking in the mud after I told him not to, so I didnt want to pick him up.  I know he can walk that far, but I know he was tired too.  I made him walk.  He cried and screamed and stood in front of me, threw himself on the ground, bit my hands when I tried to hold his.  He was very upset but I made him walk, by the time we got home he wasnt crying anymore and went for his nap good, he was tired.

So about 5 minutes ago he woke up from his nap SCREAMING, just like he did on the walk, he has never woken up like that before, crying sometimes but never screaming like that.  I gave him a hug and asked him if it was a bad dream and he said yeah, cuddled a bit and went back to sleep.  His scream was just the same as during the walk home, Im sure thats what he was dreaming about.  I gave my son nightmares!  I feel horrible!

I want my kids to listen to me, to be good kids, I definantly dont want them to fear me!  I was always determined not to 'spoil' my kids rotten, Id seen it and even lived it (as the kid)  and it isnt pretty or right.  Maybe I shouldve picked him up?  Maybe I AM a mean Mom?  :(

[mcqueenmom]

Nov. 12, 2009 at 5:32 PM

lol your a great mom, dont worry about it!!!!!! HUGS to you