so it's ok to judge me . . .

[ColtsFan1912]

I"ve been a part of Cafemom now for about 3 years, & while I love parts of it, sometimes I admit I grow very weary of it all.  Never in all my life, have I felt so judged & bashed as I have here. People find out I'm a CHristian & they instantly think they know me. They judge me by some so called Christians they knew. . .or some extrememist on the news.  They think i must hate anyone who thinks differently then me, that I"m narrow minded etc etc.

If only they would take the time to GET TO KNOW ME. They would know i am not judgemental. I don't push my beliefs on anyone (nor will i back down though. I am not ashamed). They would know I do not act "holier then thou". I don't look down on people for believing differently then them. I am FAR from perfect. I had my son out of wedlock. I cuss at football games. I sometimes throw things & lose my temper . . .I am not afraid to admit I am wrong. I am not afraid to apoligize when I say things I don't mean (my mouth gets me in trouble)

I never claimed to be perfect nor will i ever be. I don't throw stones. I don't thump with  my Bible. If you ask me what I believe I'll tell you. . .but I have NO RIGHT to judge ANYONE. That is NOT my place.

I just find it ironic when some many people say its Christians who judge & condemn. . yet they are judging me by making that statement

I think we all need to grow up a bit, tear down the labels, quit with the blanket statements & mass groups. . .its sad, it gets us nowhere.

I guess I shouldn't be suprised not to fit in. I never really have fit in anywhere in my life. In High School i was the "tralier trash" girl in a yuppy school. In college i was the "fat" girl (or so i believed due to one persons remark). . .& i need to be ok with who i am. I will never change my beliefs cause of some people on the internet. . .I just grow weary sometimes defending myself. . .trying to let people know not all Chrisitans hate & throw stones.  Some of us really show LOVE & mercy & grace

I am a CHrisitan. I believe in Jesus & God> I believe in mercy, love & forgiveness. . My heart breaks at injustice in this world, at the disgusting display some "Christians" put on in the name of God (which is not the God i believe in). If anyone knew me they would know what a tender person i am. I am often devestated by news around the world. My soul aches with all that happens. . .its hard for me NOT to feel things deeply. ..so i think this is why it affects me so much sometmes.

I love the way that your heart breaks
with every injustice and deadly fate
Praying it all be new
and living like it all depends on you

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

I love that you’re never satisfied
with face value wisdom and happy lies
you take what they say and go back and cry
you’re so close to me that you nearly died

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

they don’t have to understand you
be still
wait and know I understand you
be still
be still
FLYLEAF

[mz_erica03]

Nov. 12, 2009 at 6:47 PM

Nice journal post.. and I can relate to you very much :-)

[Anouck]

Nov. 12, 2009 at 7:01 PM

Honestly, I know I've been very vocal on "Christian" posts on here, and I'm sorry if you took that as me hating all Christians. I don't. My entire family is Catholic, and a lot of my friends are Christian too. I suppose when I rail against those who use the Bible as a weapon to judge, discriminate, or deny people some basic rights, I should clarify I don't believe ALL Christians are like that. Matter of fact, I think most of them are not. It's the radical, holier than thou, bible thumping extremists I have issues with...

So if you ever felt attacked by me personally, I apologize. I absolutely believe people have the right to practice their religion, whatever religion that may be. It's when they try to tell others their way is the ONLY way that I get ticked off :)

[ParkPrincess]

Nov. 12, 2009 at 7:07 PM

Love the post. Hold strong. Those persecuted against for belief in Christ will recieve rewards in heaven.

[catholicmamamia]

Nov. 14, 2009 at 4:07 PM

I agree and relate to all of this, wholeheartedly.