Inspired

[Momma_Halo]

I went shopping today and I will admit I am a big woman but I am not huge or morbidly obese. I am the in between where nothing fits and nothing looks good on me. I went shopping at four different stores and could not find anything. And when I could it was 30 dollars and over. It was sad, my best friend was depressed about it. But me on the other hand took it as a challenge.

I saw a few dresses I knew would look good on me but they were not my size. A woman told me "If you wanted to wear it you should lose some weight." That made me even more determined!

I am not unhealthy right now. At 158 I feel good but as I am losing weight I keep having to torture myself about seeing what I want to wear and being frumpy because society says I don't deserve it yet. So when did I need permission from the world to look good or not?

So I started taking mental pictures of the dress's and clothes I would like to wear but are not big enough for me. My problem is my boobs. They are too big. You know what I am going to do?

Make my own.

I am tired of relying on other people to make me something nice. Nah, screw that! I am making my own clothes and looking nice because I felt like it. I know how to modify if needed and how to make it look nice.

I am going to keep working out to stay healthy but I am going to keep looking my best no matter what weight I am. Because I am beautiful and no one can tell me differently.

[aurorabunny]

Nov. 14, 2009 at 11:36 PM

Good for you and great post!  It's all about being healthy anyways, not fitting other into any certain size. 

[Momma_Halo]

Nov. 15, 2009 at 2:24 AM

I completely agree, it isn't about being skinny or those flat ab's it is about getting to a point where those hips don't hurt or you are not always tired.

If you keep working out and lose all that weight then GREAT. If not... it isn't the end of the world. But as women we should dress any which way we want and not be expected to wear clothes that are drab because society is cruel and doesn't offer it.

And that goes for really tall women, really short women, and every body type out there. That is why I love the fact I know how to sew because it gives me the freedom to do as I please and not rely on others.

(Original Poster)

[aurorabunny]

Nov. 15, 2009 at 12:26 PM

And I can't believe someone told you if you wanted to wear a certain dress than you should lose weight!! The clothing out there today for the most part is all big business and BS.  I am a HEALTHY weight for my height (5'2, 110 lbs) and guess what...I can't find it practically anything at the stores.  XSs are too big for me and so are size zeros.  People say "Oh it must be nice" but actually it's not that wonderful, I still walk out of the store with no clothes and frustrated.  Plus it really just makes me wonder about their vanity sizing considering that at a normal weight I don't understand why size zeros would be too big for me.  Like I said...it's all BS anyways.

[Momma_Halo]

Nov. 15, 2009 at 12:36 PM

Ok this is pushing me even more to go for a fasion design college and learn all their is to know about sewing and owning my own business. I want to open up my own "Inbetween" shop. Clothes for women who can't find anything in the department store that is in their size.

Oh I hear that stuff all the time because I am not as small as I use to be. When I was underweight at 80 lbs and I am 5 foot 1 I heard how beautiful I was and how lucky I was to be so thin. Now at 27 I am 158 lbs and people look at me like I am disgusting. Well no wonder all the cute clothes are too small and when I go to the plus sized section they are all frumpy and horrible. Heck I am not plus sized because the plus sizes are too big on me even in their smallest size.

So I think something has to be done about that.

(Original Poster)

[Momma_Halo]

Nov. 15, 2009 at 11:45 PM

Excuse my spelling and grammar... close to graduation and hyperventilating in a bag.

(Original Poster)

[RunninRagged64]

Nov. 16, 2009 at 6:27 AM

158 lbs is not large.  However, I do admire you for wanting to make your own clothes. 

Maybe you're not shopping in the right stores??

[Momma_Halo]

Nov. 16, 2009 at 10:47 AM

Idaho doesn't have such a thing as the right stores lol. We are very podunk and only have a few choices. I am a big time shopper and have yet to find a store that is edgy and made to fit for all. But it is mostly you are either large or small.

The only store we have around here that offers clothes for my size is Torrid. The nicer plus sized clothes are very expensive. We don't have anything for those inbetween.

(Original Poster)