where is the knot in my rope?

[Bearsjen]

 How much longer can it possibly take these new meds to kick in and help me? I feel like I am being swallowed into the belly of some beast that wants nothig less than to drive me insane. I cant pinpoint when it started again, the depression, I just know that this go round the meds were not helping so I changed it up...and 2 weeks in still not feeling better.

I am just not myself. anyone who suffered or has suffered depression knows what I mean.

I am hangin  on by a thread..but still I am hanging on.

[ComotionGirl]

Nov. 17, 2009 at 8:11 PM

I know EXACTLY what you mean!!!  But keep haning on!!!!!  It will get better!!!!  Maybe you need a different medication.  I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.  I have been where you are and its NOT a good place to be!!!

HUGS!!!!!!!

XOXO

Mary

[jo.smith]

Nov. 18, 2009 at 9:39 AM

I totally understand and have been there.  I have really been struggling lately too.  Life has just been too much and I don't even want to get out of bed, but I refuse to let this get me and each day make the decision to get up and get busy. 

I am not suprised that you are depressed with everything that has been going on.  You have every right to be stressed out and down.  Just try to keep in mind that you are strong enough to beat this, that things will get better and that you have friends out there who care.

~Jo

[eternallymom]

Nov. 18, 2009 at 9:50 AM

I, too, know where you're coming from!  I hope you're feeling better soon!!!

[OldnWiseMom]

Nov. 18, 2009 at 10:46 PM

Oh, Sweetie!  I know what you mean.  I have had depression for as long as I can remember.  I have been on meds and in therapy for many years.  But now, just this last year, I am doing so much better.  My therapist is working on my PTSD as well as depression, and I go every day (almost) to a partial hosp. program, where I go to groups--writing, painting, anger managment, arts & crafts.  I have even started a newsletter, and we are starting a little choir.

I am learning to listen to my thoughts, and if something upsets me, I work it out on paper right now.  But I find thinking errors and write down healthier, more accurate ways to think about things.

It is a long, but very fruitful process.  Getting my meds right was the beginning.  You keep in touch with your dr., Honey.

Make you a list of things to do that help you feel better, and force yourself to do 2 things off that list every day.

My 2 things are washing some dishes and going outside. 

Don't lose hope.  Depression is a horrible disease, but you can kick its dam butt!!!  Just fight!!!  You deserve to feel good and be happy!!!

You can do this!  I got so bad that I laid on the couch, face to the wall, for over a year, and my muscles got so weak that I could hardly walk!  So, don't get that far down. 

Aim for progress, not perfection.

God bless you, Honey.  He loves you and will help you get well.  Just have a good talk with Him.  And don't give up!

Let me know how you're doing when you can, OK?

I'm praying for you!

Love, Wanda

[Bearsjen]

Nov. 25, 2009 at 10:03 AM

ty all for the support...this is something I have dealt with since I was 13 yrs old. I am tired of it and its easy somedays to want to just "face the wall" as wanda stated she did. But I dont, I keep trying and hoping and praying and loving. Because I love my kids, I love myself, and I lovew all of you...so how could I walk away from it all?

I cant. Hope floats up when its given a chance. sso I get up each day aand try one more time, always one more time.

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