Desperatly needing help

[shellbyrne]

for the last few months I have been lost. I feel sad and hopeless and I have had a lot of personal loss and tragedy. The more I try to do better the worse I seem to do. I have started binge drinking a few nights a week which is really making things worse of course. I am asking for prayers or inspirational stories to help me see that God will get me though this even though right now it feels hopeless. I want to let God in but I feel like I don't know how. Please help me. I want to change my life.

[shellbyrne]

Nov. 17, 2009 at 6:28 PM

I will certainly try!  Here is a excerpt from a book I am reading -

There is no consolation for suffering except to consider it against the background of the "other world".  Indeed, this is the only correct point of view.  If this world alone exists, then everything in it is absolute nonsense:  separation, sickness, innocent suffering, death.  But all these acquire a meaning in that ocean of life which invisibly washes the small island of our earthly being.  When you find in yourself the power to acquiesce in the ordeal sent by God, you achieve great progress in your spiritual life.

The conditions with which God has surrounded us are the only possible way of salvation for us; these conditions will change as soon as we have made full use of them, having transformed the bitterness of offenses, illnesses, labors, into the gold of patience, absence of anger, meekness. 

Life is a painful trial, and our misfortunes will always be with us until death:  the Christian will never know idyllic happiness and comfort.

The purifying force and significance of suffering are immense.  Our spiritual growth mostly depends on how we bear our sufferings.  Courage in the face of them, readiness to accept them - this is the attitude we must strive for.

feel free to pm me if these help any - God bless, Shell

[daye62]

Nov. 17, 2009 at 7:11 PM

I have been exactly where you find yourself;in fact,worse,since in my situation I didn't have the ability to be on-line.I don't want to put the very personal details of the depth of my despair and pain in this forum.You can message me if you'd like to hear the miraculous transformation that took place in my life.Let's just say that my entire life had been one trial and trauma after another,from severe child abuse to losing my father to murder to my first husband turning out to be a cheating asshole who allowed me and his daughter barely able to eat and keep a roof after I divorced him.Did I drink? What do you think?I wanted to die and then,in desperation I gave up telling God how I wanted Him to help me and surrendered.Let me say I am not religious,but spiritual.Suddenly things started to change.Every AM I turned the day over to God.I listened for His voice and did the footwork.My life today is beyond anything I ever dreamed of.God's plans for me were so much better than mine.I haven't had a drink in years,by the way,and I am grateful every day.Don't give up.Turn it over.Message me if you'd like details.Sending peace and love from me to you.