Something is coming out!/Deliver or not?

[motherA4C]

Saturday, November 14, 2009

 Saturday night I went to the bathroom. When I wiped twice I felt something coming out. It was a little squiggly thing, felt like a small worm. It was hanging out of my vagina. I called my husband and told him something was coming out and we needed to go to the hospital. When we called the dr, he said go to labor and delivery.

  My husband told me to lie on the bed while he got himself and the girls ready. I laid there scared and knowing this can't be good. On the way to the hospital I felt a small pain at every bump.

 When we got there the nurse check me didn't see or feel anything. She said the dr would come in  and check me also. TWO hours later, dr came, checked me and  hesitately said that he felt something near my cervix and ordered a ultrasound.  

 The ultra sound showed that there was some fluid and we heard the my son's heartbeat. Later on the dr came back to tell me that the umbillical cord did come out earlier. he that I did n't to do any thing about it now.just get some rest. My husband and kids went home  and I went to sleep. Well, sort of, after all I am in the hospital. 

 Sunday, November 15, 2009 

On Sunday, another dr came and told me because my water had already broke and the umbillical cord had already come out, it was best for me to deliver the baby or we both be in trouble. He said the bacteria that could cause infection could cause major problems for me and the baby.

 I asked him what the procedure would be and he said that they would give me an epiderual(sp), take out the cerclage, then give me high doses of potoesin(sp) until I deliver the baby. He told me to take some time to make my decision and let him know what i wanted to do.

After he left, I called my husband and told him what the doctor said. I cried and was heartbroken about making this decsion. My husband said regardless everything will be all right. Every thing is in God's hands. He told me to pray about it. I said that I would and call him back.

 I called one of my friends who went through a very similar situation twice. She encouraged me and prayed for us.The nurse came back to check on me. I asked her if they will give the baby oxygen and what do we do if the baby dies and after. She said that normally they don't. They wrap the baby up and make them feel comfortable until the baby passes. She ssaid normally the lungs are not even developed enough for the baby to take in air.Next she told me that we can choose to bury the baby or let the hospital take care of it(cremation  and we don't get the ashes). I was shocked at her answer. Before she leeft she said that i didn't have to use the bed pain any more and that I could walk to the bathroom and to take  the IV machine with me.

I went to the bathroom and hated taking the IV machine with me because it was heavy to drag around. I was connected to it so I had no choice. when ghoing to the bathroom I felt heaviness as I walked. Ididn't like it one bit. I would rather use the bedpan.

After I got in the bed, I prayed. I didn't focus on my emotions just listened for an answer. I had peace and trusted in God. Then, I had to use the bathroom again- #2, this time. It was on the verged of coming out. So contrary to what said  and because it was #2,  I went any way. I didn't have to push at all.Then I felt something come out. It was the umbillical cord and a lot of it came out. I quickly got back in the bed and called the nurse. I told what happened and she that it was okay. Not to me,  of course, I knew I had to make decision and make it soon!

I called my husband and told him what happened and that I made  the decision. He reassured my that every thing would okay regardless. I got off the phone and knew it was time for the delivery of my son @ 19wks.