Mommy will Santa bring me a new brother?

[Momma_Halo]

I lost it, I had to go into my room and cry. It isn't the fact I don't want more... my body just hates me. I want more children so my son has siblings. I grew up with siblings and I love them very much.

But with every negative test and now being diagnosed with PCOS by symptoms alone... I am looking at more doctors visits for just further diagnosis and controlling. And with anyone who has PCOS the old mantra of "Don't worry if you keep trying you will get pregnant" makes you laugh. Because it is a very hard road to get pregnant. Luck plays a huge part of it and I don't have any. And also with understanding PCOS biologically makes even trying feel hopeless.

I want so much to give my son a brother or sister but I can't and that hurts. My husband begs me not to get pregnant again because of how hard it was on me with Tomas. Plus I have six years of college to get through. If I finish college for Radiology then I have tripled my pay checks. So right now I don't have the money to try to get pregnant nor the time. Me going to college means a better life for my family... not going to college means a harder time for my family and a possibility of not getting pregnant at all.

My husband and I have been talking about adoption but we worry about everything.

[CheshireHope]

Nov. 20, 2009 at 7:31 PM

i just had my last child(another little boy) and had my tubes tied. one of my sons asked me when was i having his baby sister. it made me cry too. i would love to have another child but i wuld wait a long while this time but instead we decided to tie my tubes.

but if i were in your shoes i would finish college. then after that try for another. i don't know if this will help any but it always seems to e my downfall... i was told that if you hav sex while the moon is in the same phase it was when you were born than you will conceive..