Sadness

[sleepymamaof3]

 It is hitting me hard right now, sadness. I don't know why. Maybe the depression, maybe still a little PPD, maybe it's just temporary. I can't do the therapy and meds, the therapy is annoying. I think I actually get more out of talking with hubby, surprisingly and the meds, I always hated those, I would rather try natural ways without medicating my body and mind.

Maybe it's my complete desire to have another bebe and hubby saying no, not now. I know he is right, but that doesn't make the desire for another one go away. We already have a 3yr old, a 1.5 yr old and an almost 4 month old.

We started at the gym, and everytime I start to feel the urge to cry half way through it. But I am now starting to feel that way all the time. I just started a low cal diet, and am still a little hungry, though that is probably really just thirst because I don't drink a lot.

He wants sex, and it feels like constantly, and I don't - but I feel guilty about that and don't want to deprive him and give in to him, but I don't enjoy it, and I start to hate him a little for it. I just told him earlier, I just want a couple of days without it, because the more sex I have without wanting it, the more I don't want anything.

I am so sad, and unhappy and so sick of alot of things, and I don't know what to do.

[happymom1988]

Nov. 20, 2009 at 8:30 PM

wow talk to ppd specialist ! ik about wantin another baby , my son is 3 months old today n  i want another baby soon , but i know is not the best idea . enjoy ur little one !

[asheybabey69]

Dec. 1, 2009 at 6:30 PM

im so sorry you are feeling this way!!! try to be strong and hold your head high! you have three beautiful babies!!

i know its hard tho. ive been very depressed lately. me and the hubby lost our baby at 8 weeks in september. im dying inside right now knowing that i should have a baby belly n know the gender.

so if ya need to vent or talk. im here!