thinking about my grandmother's passing

[s_wren_mom]

Lula

the nurse would put me through

my father hadn’t 

he didn’t want to disturb you

so i called again the next day

she had an eastern european accent

and called me honey or some term of endearment

or maybe just let me know your effort was ok spent on me

she said you were awake

i held my breath and heard you say hello

a voice as close as my own conscience

when i told you i loved you

and you told me

a thousand goodnights and goodbyes passed between us

you and i

maternal and childlike

interchangeably

my heart, you had waited for me

my grandmother.

i lost my paternal grandmother this past winter, she had been in a lot of pain from a type of bone cancer, so i was glad for her to get relief but still think of her all the time. i wasn't able to go to the service and am still unsure how much i've processed her being gone. i think about her all the time, but really do feel glad she's gone on to be with my grandfather in whatever form we all take on next. while working on a freelance painting the other night, i was inspired to write this poem... its very rough and simplistic but i don't know when i'll have a chance to go back over it. i haven't written poetry since college and am very out of practice ;) anyway, i felt like sharing this little moment, i guess because i want people to know how much she meant to me. 

[tericared]

Nov. 21, 2009 at 1:24 PM

Beautiful......

[s_wren_mom]

Nov. 21, 2009 at 8:33 PM

thank you :)

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