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Staying positive.
- Nov 20, 2009 at 11:44 PM
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Why is it so hard?
It's very hard for me right now and I'm not sure why. For months now it seems like every day practically everything goes wrong. It's always somewhat piddly things; I think we have replaced every gadget or appliance in our house within the past few months, the car needs repairs, no one can seem to be healthy at the same time for more than a day. I try so hard to be thankful that there are a lot of little problems instead of big awful problems but it's so damn hard. The little things add up to the point where you feel like you're slowly being hen-pecked to death or something.
I have a lot to be thankful for and I really know that. For some reason lately I've been having a harder time than usual getting that point across to my pessimistic brain. Some days recently I just feel like giving up. I guess the fact that I never do is some type of positive thinking in and of itself, but I don't know. I wish we could just have a few days run smoothly around here and maybe that would help me regain some of my optimism.
I want to go back in time to when I was a teenager and used to sit around complaining that I was bored and bitchslap myself. What I wouldn't give now for a day that was "boring" instead of having endless strings of days that seem to be governed by Murphy's Law. I think the worst part is that I try so hard not to be one of those asshats who complains about how horrible their life is all the time when there are people who are homeless and starving and parents who have little children in the hospital dying of cancer. I think about those people and then I think about what a jerk I am for walking around pouting because my washing machine broke or because I have a sinus infection.
So the guilt on top of the pessimism...it's a big crock pot full of poo basically. Yep. Anyone for poo stew? It's apparently the main dish being served at the pity party that I'm hosting. :)
Comments:
That was true from your heart it will slow down , Your heart in the right place it just are life's are constantit sometimes becomes overwhelming , Hang in there lady .. I hope you feel better too . luvs ..That time of the month comes for me , the whole world is about to end so heads up , hold your head high your awesome .. Positive in Positive out ...
You can talk to me anytime you need me.
Katie, I can relate so much. I wrote a big message here, but I decided I am going to pm you instead. Look for it, lady. ♥
((Big hugs)) Katie.
You know, I used to think, like you, that compared to other people's problems, I had no right to complain about my minor ones. But I no longer think that is true. Everything is relative, you know? To an ant, a piece of dirt in his way can ruin his life, a piece of dirt in your way can make something for you to wipe up. What I mean is, your problems are as big to your life as more tragic problems are to someone else's life. It doesn't matter how big or small, it matters that it bothers you. So how to deal with it? One of my mottos of life is "It may be small stuff to you, but it's a huge friggng mountain to me". So you fix one problem and you give yourself a positive attitude about the fact that you were able to overcome the problem. One problem at a time with pride that you dealt with it. That will make that big old mountain into tiny molehills you can jump across one at a time. Now, 3 deep breaths... and go tackle that problem. Then enjoy the rest of today, the next problem can wait until tomorrow!
And a little humor for your day:
Somebody said that it couldn't be done,
Me, with a grin, replied, "I've never been one to say it couldn't be done, leastways not til I've tried".
So I buckled right in, with a trace of a grin, by golly I went right to it,
I tackled that thing that couldn't be done....
and I.....
COULDN'T DO IT!
Love,
Linda
p.s. just wrote a recipe for the best peanut butter fudge... make some in 5 minutes and drown your sorrows!
I moo you.
I misread Joye's comment. I was thinking - she probably wants to you flash her instead of moon her!
Oh I don't know, Kim. I've got a nice ass.
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I will tell you what my therapist told me, all pain, ALL PAIN is a 10. The washer being broken and the little things do add up and it has nothing to do with those people. You are human and right now your pain is a 10. Telling yourself you shouldn't feel bad just makes it worse. Do yourself a favor and admit that right now everything just sux.
- meandmyshadow
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