I just want to hold my baby boy...

[AngelaP.]

Ever since I had the surgery I have not been allowed to really hold him because he squirms to much. I'm not allowed to pick him up. The worst thing possible happened yesterday, Faolan was so tired but was fighting off sleep and it was making him cranky and for the first time since my surgery I was able to hold him as long as a pillow was on my top of my stomach.

Well he started to really cry, and my mom took him from my arms, gently but it still hurt my heart. I wasn't able to calm my baby down, I wasn't able to take care of him. Since I had complications they want me to give myself two weeks, how could I do that? I've never felt so sad, and so... helpless in my life.

I could see the sympathy and guilt in my moms eyes, she did not want to take him away from me but my stitches aren't even close to be healed...

My God even though I'm so close to him I want to hold him, but if I end up ripping my stitches it'll just take longer to heal. It just hurts, I want to hold my baby. He graces me with his smile and his adoring eyes that for now I don't deserve I feel.

Moms what do I do?

[MSugarKane]

Nov. 22, 2009 at 8:04 AM

It won't be too long before your well enough and can hold him as much as you want. For now, maybe your mom can get him settled and hand him back to you after he goes to sleep so you can snuggle with the child then

[Lb128f]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 2:22 AM

I'm sorry! MSugarKane is right! Soon...;-) I'm so glad you have your Mom there to help!

[nicolemstacy]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 9:55 AM

You do too deserve to be adored by him! He's your baby! I know things are tough right now, but you'll be healed up before you know it and he'll be in your arms. I know it feels like forever, but it won't be. Stay strong and get all the rest you can. The more you rest, the quicker you will heal. You're truly blessed to have your mom there to help you. Congrats and best of luck to you and your family.

[tristangirl]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 7:57 PM

Angela I am so sorry to hear about this, I would say you have to follow doctors orders as close as possible so that you dont have further complications that keep you from being able to care for him for even longer. And in the mean time be greatful that atleast it is your mother who is there to help you care for your beautiful baby. have her lay him in the bed with you as often as possible just to get the closeness and comfort of haing him there. Good luck and I wish you a speedy recovery!

[kodymom17]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 11:25 PM

hope youre doing ok =) itll all get better soon!!!!! =) just keep thinking happy thoughts. like no changing smelly diapers =)