GOD IS GOOD

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The following words are the lyrics to    It Feels Like Redemption by Michael English.  This song has helped me during the past few days. I will explain more at the end of my post.

I know how hopeless feels
When you're staring at the bottom of an empty heart
In my life I know how forgotten feels
Wondering if the world even knows who you are

But I've never known anything, felt anything
Like the love of Jesus
And it's hard to describe what's happening inside
But right now all I know is

It feels like redemption raining down on me
It feels like forgiveness is come to set me free
All my chains have been lifted
'Cause when the hands of love touch a broken life
It feels like redemption

Now I know how thankful feels
'Cause I am overwhelmed by this gift of grace
And I know how healing feels
'Cause all my pain and all my shame
And all my tears have been erased

It feels like redemption raining down on me
It feels like forgiveness is come to set me free
All my chains have been lifted
'Cause when the hands of love touch a broken life
It feels like

Say goodbye, the past is ending
Say hello to a new beginning
No more night
The sun is shining

Feels like redemption raining down on me
It feels like forgiveness is come to set me free
All my chains have been lifted
'Cause when the hands of love touch a broken life
And when the hands of love touch a broken life
It feels like redemption

I cried out to the Lord, He heard my cry
He healed my heart and He touched my life
It feels like redemption

So say goodbye, the past is ending
Say hello to a new beginning
Feels like
Feels like redemption

For a while I have been struggling with a lot of personal issues that has brought a lot of pain into my life. A few years back I excepted Jesus into my life, and there were times when I strayed away from him due to there being so much pain, loss, and anguish in my life. I felt as though God must have hated me, or that there was something wrong with me so there was no way in which he could possibly love me, let alone hear my prayers, or heal the pain within me.

A few weeks ago when I was at the end of my rope and I no longer cared weather I lived or died, I fell to my knees in tears begging God to hear my prayers and to please relieve me of some of the emotional pain that was weighing me down, and killing me inside. I cried and cried to God, telling him how I felt and how I just wanted to be freed from all the suffering. How I felt like I had no where to turn, no one to confide in, and how I just wanted to end all the pain cause I just couldnt take it anymore. I lierally fell asleep on the floor crying to God, and I have never felt that desperate before.

Soon after that, within a few days, if not the very next day, God put someone in my life who has helped more than words can say, someone who understands me, someone who has spent many hours talking to me, someone who gives so much of her heart to people in hopes that they will know that God can heal people, and will if they follow him. Someone who has not judged me, and has made me feel as though I am a human being with rights, someone who deserves better, someone who will one day become strong, even when I doubt that at times, when the pain becomes unbearable. She has treated me as though I am someone. I have never known anyone quite like this in my entire life, but I know it was God who put this person in my life, and it is God who is using this person to show me that in time everything will be okay.

I can not thank God enough for placing this person in my life, and I can not thank this woman enough for all the help she has given me. I'm still struggling today, quite a bit, but far less than I was over the past few weeks. Whenever I am in need of someone to talk to she is there, as well as God. Before I didn't think God loved me, I thought he hated me, and I didn't feel as though he heard my prayers, but I now know that that is not the case. Sometimes you have to fall to your knees, cry your eyes out, reveal your whole self to God, then fall asleep while praying, for your prayers to be answered, but spending the night on the floor and having puffy eyelids the next day was well worth it.

I know I have a long road ahead of me before I have my life back, and I know it is going to be hard in the months to come to get through all of this pain, but I know with God it is possible if I stick with him, and continue to open up to him, and the wonderful lady he placed in my life, and not walk away from wither one of them.  Im still scared, and at times want to say I've had enough, I just can't do it, but God pulls me back out of it, and gives the lady who has helped me the right words to say to ease my mind and heart and to keep me going. I don't know how else to explain how I feel besides God is good, and when I feel theres nothing worth living for, I need to think again, and rely on God to get me through. I now know GOD can, and will, IF I ALLOW HIM TO.

Thank you God, and Thank you to the wonderful lady who has come into my life just at the right time. If thats not God I don't know what it is. I can't say Thank you again.

I cried out to the Lord, He heard me cry, he healed my heart and he touched my life. It feels like redemption. So say goodbye the past is ending, say hello to a new beginning.

My heart still has a ways to go to be healed, but God has started the process. He has most definantly touched my life. The past I pray every day is ending, and I can't wait till my life has a new beginning.

 

 

[SissyAnn141]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 5:15 PM

This is very touching, and I do believe GOD puts people in our lives to help us. I hope you continue to do well, i am here for you also.

[jaycru25]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 7:57 PM

This is beautiful

[godsproperty07]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 10:51 PM

I love you my sister in Christ.........this brought tears to my eyes!! I pray continuously that he will surround you with His love, comfort and strength.

These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

John 16:33

 

[adamsmom05]

Nov. 29, 2009 at 9:22 PM

I now know GOD can, and will, IF I ALLOW HIM TO.

AMEN!!