I hate my life!!!!Well most of it!

[hedtrippe]

I am in this really deep dark funk right now and I really just want to be happy again!From the outside my life might look great to some.I have a warm house a nice car food for my family.Yeah money can be tight it wouldn't be so bad if my stupid husband would get help and quit drinking but that isn't going to happen I need to accept that I can't change him and leave!But I am so damn afraid to be alone that I take him back or go back every fucking time!What is wrong with me???Anotherthing that is really getting to me is my mom  is never there for me and yeah I fucked up s a teen and did a lot of things I really regret now but your my mom why don't you love me?I will call you to talk and you won't answer your phone and when you do and i say I love you you never say it back.Do you know how bad that hurts?I need you and always have.The only reson I did those things was for attention you were never home when I needed you.And dad thanks for ll the money you give me I wouldn't be able to have these things if it weren't for you but could we please just hangout and spend time as a family?

One thing for sure though i know that if it weren't for you marley and logan I would have a life with no love you are my everything thanks for giving mommy all your love no matter what!

[meandmyshadow]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 11:28 PM

Time to grow up and stand on your own 2 feet.  I'm not trying to be mean but you gotta get away from the person you married and take care of yourself and your kids.  You are the only one who can do it.  Let me know if you need someone to talk to.

[hedtrippe]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 11:31 PM

And yes I know Im the only one that can change all this and Im working on that I am going to school.I am trying to find work but thats hard these days.Thanks

(Original Poster)

[giftbox]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 11:31 PM

 First thing to realize is your not the only teen that made a mistake. 2nd thing is as time goes on things will get better with your mom. Give her time to reflect on I told you sooo..... 3rd never be afraid to ask to move back home and continue your education to prepare for a better life for you and the baby... Keep your head up I know you are a fighter... lafrances

[giftbox]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 11:43 PM

Hey you have a beautiful family and something to be proud about.  Don't become discouraged... and maybe some family counseling will help...  But I must admit , you are one of the most real persons I've have spoken with on the internet... Keep your head up....lafrances

[hedtrippe]

Nov. 23, 2009 at 11:50 PM

Thank you so much its nice to hear nice words for once!

(Original Poster)