filling the grave

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filling the grave
Nov 24, 2009 at 1:50 PM
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Wow. I am really down. Please pray for me that I will start feeling better.

My Grandma died this weekend and was buried on Sunday. I live 2 hours from home and went home for the funeral. There is no viewing in Jewish tradition so everyone meets at the synagogue and then they have a short service and they take the coffin to the hearse and we all proceed to the cemetery. We get there and my family stands in front of the grave as they unload the coffin, as they are doing this my evil aunt, who has not seen my Grandma in 20 years pushes past my family with hers and stands in front of us so we have to scoot around to the side. The cantor says a prayer and places the first shovel of dirt on the coffin. Worst noise I have ever heard. I still cant get the sound out of my head. He turns to hand my mother the shovel and my evil aunt practically knocks her over to snatch the shovel away, then turns and hands it not to my mother but to her scumbag husband. He balancing the shovel under one finger waits for my mom to take it. She does and then my dad and then me. I have to say I was raised on a horse farm, no shovel has EVER scared me. I could barely lift it, even with the molecule of dirt that was on it.....then I tossed dirt onto my grandma. I will never forget how bad that felt. I watched the coffin disappear under the dirt. Awful. I miss her so much I never thought this would happen so soon.

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