I don't know HOW or WHY i thought this would be a uneventful thanksgiving

[Aniyunwiya]

Here's the jest of it, SO is off work Tuesdays and Wednesdays and works 4pm-1am. A MONTH ago his grandmother calls and asks if we are going to be coming for thanksgiving (note, we come every year), he told them YES, IF he didn't have to work the day they were having it. A week ago they call and say "oh we are having thanksgiving (the day of) at 3pm." Um okay, he tells them, "well we can't make it" THEN they go off saying that I never let him see them (note, they live SIX MILES AWAY) and I'M keeping him away oh so it's MY fault the day you are having YOUR thanksgiving? (he won't be coming to my families thanksgiving either cause of work). But really, that's not what bothers me, they blame me for shit all the time, whatever.

What bothers ME is my (male) cousin, as kids we got along OKAY, but since we turned 17/18 (we are 5 months apart), we haven't gotten along so well. Part of it is how he was raised (with a ignorant, racist redneck father and a stupid mother with no backbone) and part of it, is just him and his own stupidity. Lately, it's his choice in girls (i say girls, not women), seems it's a new flavor every week. Last one was a girl (no much older then we were, both 19 at the time), about 24ish, with three kids (all different fathers), now i'm NOT bashing at all (except for this girl) but she was a psycho and looking for another BD (while my cousin is a nice guy, he is no prize, hs dropout, can't keep a job etc but he is family).

SO dropped the bomb on me yesterday (he heard from my mom via mimi, my grandmother) that this (not the above mentioned, a new one) flavor of the week...MIGHT BE PREGNANT! That hit me hard, like a stab in the stomach or like a ton of bricks, that's like...the 6th one in less then a year, the fourth one in less then two MONTHS. It hurts, it hurts that someone who has no means of supporting THEMSELVES (still lives with his mom, doesn't help her out AT ALL etc) let alone a child, is having one. The KICKER here, is, this girl has been TRYING to get pregnant (this isnt' the first time she thought she was).

Granted, i'm not surpised it happened to my cousin, he doesn't use protection like he is SUPPOSE to (i know this because of the above mentioned girl with the three kids). This just makes me want to cry or scream or something, knowing i'll HAVE to see him (or both of them) tomorrow just makes it worse. Like so many times before, I'll have to put on a happy face and swallow my own feelings and try not to burst out in tears, not to mention helping prepare dinner (we are hosting this year).

How is this fair at all?

[MooreTrio]

Nov. 25, 2009 at 8:33 PM

oh hun I'm so sorry to hear this... Its definetely not the news you would want to hear right now :(