Its finally happened... Im having a nervous breakdown

[luvmyboys2]

AND NO ONE FUCKING CARES! I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE. I DO THE SAME MOTHER FUCKING SHIT EVERY GOD DAMN FUCKING DAY.  I HATE IT.  I GET NOT ONE FUCKING MINUTE TO MY GOD DAMN SELF. I CLEAN UP AFTER KIDS ALL FUCKING DAY, EVERY DAY.  THEN I HAVE TO CLEAN UP AFTER MY HUSBAND...WHAT THE FUCK??? HE IS HOME ALL DAY EXCEPT FOR THE 3 DAYS HE HAS CLASSES.  INSTEAD OF PUTTING A DIRTY DISH IN THE SINK IT GOES ON THE COUNTER NEXT TO IT. INSTEAD OF PUTTING THE CAN OR BOTTLE IN THE RECYCLE BIN, IT GOES ON THE COUNTER ABOVE IT, INSTEAD OF THROWING A PLATE OR NAPKIN IN THE FUCKING TRASH, IT GOES ON THE COUNTER ABOVE IT!!!!! I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I COMPLAIN SAYING HOW I HATE CLEANING EVERYDAY, OR PICKING UP THE SAME SHIT, IT NEVER ENDS.

I WAS JUST UPSTAIRS, LAYING ON THE HEATING PAD BECAUSE I HURT MY BACK LAST WEDNESDAY & MY 8 YR OLD COMES UP. I ASK WHAT HIS FATHER IS DOING. HE TELLS ME LAYING ON THE COUCH SLEEPING LIKE ALWAYS... YES THAT CAME OUT OF THE MOUTH OF MY CHILD. SAD HUH? SO I WAS LIKE WHAT ARE YOUR BROTHERS DOING? (THEY'RE 2 & 1)... HE GOES DOWN TO DOUBLE CHECK & THEY'RE RIPPING THE POTTY CHART OFF THE WALL & PUTTING STICKERS ALL OVER THE PLACE.  I GO DOWNSTAIRS, & SURE ENOUGH THATS WHAT THEYRE DOING.. ALONG W/ ONE OF MY KITCHEN TABLE CHAIRS AT THE COUNTER & FUCKING TOYS ALL OVER THE PLACE.  YES, I FREAKED THE FUCK OUT.  SCREAMING, THROWING THINGS ETC... BUT DID DH MOVE??? NO!!!!! I HAVE HAD IT!!! IM SO READY TO LEAVE... I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE TO GO, NO MONEY TO MY NAME & I KNOW I'LL NEVER GET MY KIDS.  IM HAVING A NERVOUS FUCKING BREAKDOWN & MY HUSBAND DOESNT EVEN CARE.  FUCK MY LIFE!

[wrensong]

Nov. 29, 2009 at 6:02 PM

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time right now. Trust me, I have been there. You need a break. Tell DH to get off his ass cuz you are taking some time to yourself. Get in your car and go somewhere. Go you a friend's house, your mom, your sister, the mall, somewhere. Even if you just get in the car and drive around and listen to music or go to a park and walk or sit.

If all else fails lock yourself in the bathroom and take a hot bath and read a book.

Stand up for yourself and let hubby knows he must pitch in.

ps don't walk off and leave your kids, you will forever regret it...trust me. I have been there

[hazeleyes0606]

Nov. 29, 2009 at 10:53 PM

I am right there with you.....I feel your pain. I say the same thing all the time and it NEVER seems to get through to anyone of them. Nathan is more help then the rest....I have a part time job but in the same boat nothing really to my name and the kids I wouldn't stand a chance of getting......Go for a walk and take some time for yourself. Let it all go for a day or two. Good Luck!!

[Starfire73]

Nov. 30, 2009 at 8:57 AM

Pretty much what they said*points up*

relax girl, BREATHE!

[debraann380]

Nov. 30, 2009 at 9:36 AM

Play the Lottery

[Momma_Love]

Dec. 1, 2009 at 12:45 AM

Wow...  Seems you have read my mind and wrote everything I have been thinking.  I am in the same damn boat as you...  but I must add disrespect in the mix also.  My husband has no respect for me, is always rude, and treats me like trash!  I have been trying to figure my life out for the last 6 months or so...  it sucks!