LadySaphira's Journal

mussings of the slightly deranged

 My holiday to do list is a bit different from most other peoples. Not because I am flat broke and will not even have enough money for even dollar store gifts this year for my children.  It is not because I now own absolutely ZERO Christmas decorations after my mud room ceiling collapsed and ruined the few I did have, including my measly little 3 foot  artificial tree I have used for the past two years.  A lot of people are in the same situation financialy.

Topping my holiday to do list is waitig for my phone to ring.  Waiting nervously for THE call that I want  and dread the most. I will be waiting for a call from my oldest daughter's oncology Radiologist.

I will then set up an appointment for her to start radiation treatments and oral Chemotherapy.

I will have to write up a written leave of absence for work even though I am the only one currently working in my family and that is only part time. My hubby has bee unable to work do to his own health issues for over 3 months now and may never be able to go back.

I will then take my wonderfully brave, resilient 19 year old daughter to her first appointment where they will shave off all her beautiful hair. She will then be placed  on a table and have her skull tattooed to mark the places the radiation beams must enter to combat the second brain tumor she has had in 6 1/2 years.

I  then have to prepare my 12 yr old multiply disabled son for my absence of 6 weeks while I stay in a city 80 miles away with my daughter.He has a lot of issues and already is having problems with behavior because of all the appointments I have already had to take my oldest daughter to has him confused. He Knows "sissy" is sick but does not understand how serious it is, he thinks mommy doesn't love him because she doesn't spend time with him like she used to.

I will have to figure out how to call home at least once a week to talk to my son, youngest daughter, and hubby during a 6 week absence.

Somewhere in all that I hope to find the time and money to get a boat load of construction paper so we can make a "tree" to hang on the wall that my son can decorate with ornaments made out of construction paper so that it feels just a little bit Christmassy at home.

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Lb128f
Nov. 30, 2009 at 8:42 PM

I'm so sorry...I hope that things will change for you all and that you will get a Christmas miracle. I will be saying a prayer for your DD and for your DS too...you all will be in my prayers.

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ilove...
Dec. 1, 2009 at 1:20 PM

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.  sending love

hugs

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LYNDELOU
Dec. 2, 2009 at 12:33 AM

Lisa~ I am so very sorry that you and your family are going through so much right now!!!

You and your DD and DS and the rest of your family will be in my thoughts and prayers!!!

Love And Hugs

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calydu
Dec. 2, 2009 at 5:52 PM

We have added you and your family to our group's Christmas Wish List

 

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