Breaking Down by Amorentia

[WisaPlace]

Peni POV

The Barn Owl tapped on the Kitchen door with a small box tied to it's leg. "Baby, did you order  something?" I called to Marcus who was putting Johni and Elissa in their little seats holding both of their pacifier handles with his teeth. He shook his head mumbling incoherantly.

Even through I smile at him, something inside of me hissed feeling the weight of the package in my hands. It was a sound I've come to recognize somewhere deep inside just like the sizzle of a oil in a pan that warns that  it is hot. My fingers raised to my Pack necklace as I called Ellena to sit with the kids. Seeing Elena come in, Marcus came outside with me putting an arm around me.

Paul came out of the edge of the forest toward the back porch where I took the box from the owl, shivering as I heard the hiss again. "This came," I held out the package out to him. Marcus looked at concerned as I asked, "Can you tell me if it's alright?"

As soon as Paul's nose sniffed the brown box his teeth bared releasing a thick growl rolling through his throat. All of the hair on my body stood up knowing this blue eyed demon was starting to be predictable - true to his motiff to hide in the shadows. Feeling my hands starting to shake with anger, I handed the box to Marcus as Sam appeared in the yard.

"I can't open it." I told him walking away counting from ten to one in my head trying to calm myself.

Marcus took the box from me, handling it gingerly to Sam, "Only Peni and I have touched it, if there's a scent, you should be able to get it..."

"Should I call the Pack?" Sam asked Paul whose fur shook side to side telling him no. Grinding my teeth, I turned around again counting from twenty back to one, pacing with my hands shaking trying hard to work off the intensity I was feeling.

The sound of paper ripping and the box opening was followed by hearing Marcus groan, "Oh, Gawd." Instantly I turned seeing the contense of the box: two brown eyes with the words "Stop looking" written in red.

What exploded inside of me was an immediate physical reaction I'd supressed from the first day. Seeing Justin's eyes that had been ripped from his body, I phased taking off into the forest running with murder in my heart.

Behind me voices called. The rage filled my head blocking them out. Only Sam or Marcus could stop me pulling rank, which neither did. Snarling I continued to let the fury drive me forward at full speed seeing images of our Justin in my arms, his cries of agony, mumbling as he died with the holes in his head where his eyes - those eyes - belonged. 

Stop Looking. The last major break we had to get close to this attacker came from my Spirit Travels. Knowing the attacker was related to Caleb and Sebastain, I'd followed lines till we discovered as many living relatives as we could. Ewan and Aberforth interviewed each one. Stop Looking. Could all have this happened because of me?

Reading my thoughts, some arguements that it wasn't my fault were raised. Blocking them out, my neck rared back to howl as Sam's voice told me through the Pack conciousness, "Peni don't." The howl stopped in my throat. It was have alarmed everyone. Sam didn't want everyone to know. 

Suppressing my wolf scream drove me harder, running faster, wanting - needing to tear, to kill. Everything around me appared blood red, dyed with Justin's blood. Images of him ran through my head demading justice, pleading for blood to revenge the spilling of his own.

Justin's face became Tori's then Kyle's then Davy's, Shawns, Anthony, CD's, and Kara's. As I growled, throwing my body against a tree knocking it down, it became Deni's, then Nevi's, Jaki, Blissful, as well as each one of the Quad's. Another tree fell as I rammed into it seeing little Sammy and Jared's little Max. The pain in my side strengthened as I ran into a thicker tree forcing it down. It felt so good - a name to the pain. I wanted to bleed the pain inside out. I wanted to tear somthing into shreds till it hurt as much as I did. Before I knew it I held the neck of a large buck in my mouth shaking it with all the power inside of me until it's neck snapped.

Out of breath, I stood with my shoulder raised, ears back slowly regaining some simblance of control.  In front of me I saw  Marcus, Sam, Paul, and Seth around me hearing Davy say in his joking way, "What did the Prince of the Forest ever do to you?"

Instinctually I turned on on him with the buck bleeding in my mouth, My teeth bared snarling at him. In my head I could hear Marcus telling me how much he loved me as he slowly inched towards me with his blue eyes showing concern clearly through his white fur.

"Carefully," Sam cautioned him as Marcus nuzzled me with his face. With a portion of deer blood, I swollowed the growl that wanted to flow from my throat. The worry in his mind having never seen me like this, made me calm myself.

"Wow," Seth noted Marcus's ability to calm me. "That's impressive." The Pack conciousness was flooded with memories of me in Full Moon fever, before Marcus's calming influance, before the potion control, when was unpredictable and rash. Part of me smiled seeing how quickly I acted in anger. Kicking Sam in the face, fighting, running, screaming were all parts of me that laid dorment as my roles of responsibility took the forefront in my life.

Again, I swallowed another growl dropping the buck to the ground. Turning on Seth, I wanted to snarl and fight now. I wanted more. Tears could only do so much. Rage... anger... could only be vented a few ways. Then distantly we all begin to hear a tragic scream echoing. It was Justin's, I could tell. But it was fresher than when he was dieing in my arms. It was full of the sounds of the deepest sort of pain. The memory wasn't mine.

"Poor Bambi," a new voice joined us as Tori approached carrying with her the screams branded in her mind of Justin being tortured to death. My anger broke in two as my attention turning to her and her torment with a measure of sadness pouring into the cracks of the broken fury.

Peni and Pack written by Amorentia. Marcus Flint written by shtteredprncess.

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