Tis The Season For Musings

[KatsMom01]

We've almost been in another world this last month or so; what with the mountain of doctors appointments every week for our Littlest One (vaccine reaction fallout), mystery rashes and therapy sessions for Aspie Girly Girl - and yet another specialist added to the mix.  But I've caught glimpses of the holidays approaching - we joined the crazy mob at our local Wal-Mart on black friday and like most, our calendar is quickly filling up with things we must attend.   We even lined up on the sidewalks for our local Christmas parade. 

I've decided that I must not be sane or else I was teetering on the edge and lost it completely.   I'm tired, exhausted - yes, sleep deprived, that must be the reason.  But stressed, feeling pressured to tally up the funds and try to stretch the dollar to make sure that all the gifts are bought.  Not one little bit.  Do I feel stressed to clean like madwoman for the house to shine with every decoration glittering just right?  Not even the slightest motivated.  For that matter, I've even decided that a little dust adds to the character.  (And this is news coming from a confessed clean freak.)

There are just more important things in the world than allowing ourselves to get caught up in feeling the stress and pressure of making Christmas perfect.  We women are brilliant at pulling everything together and making it look like we didn't break a sweat.  We're also brilliant of allowing stress to build to unimaginable proportions so that once the season is over, we're filled with regret that we didn't get the chance to enjoy the slightest bit of it.

Yes, I want my children to be excited and happy on Christmas morning.  I also want to do a million things for the elderly in our church and the people who are having worse luck than we are.  I also want to give to those we love, friends we treasure.  Will we be able to do all of it.  Not a chance, we'll have to choose.  But tonight, looking back on the medical issues we've faced and are faced with yet, I have much already to feel blessed for, much I could complain about in length.  I probably could muster enough energy up to start to feel some stress about what we can't do or what we should do.

But this year, because I might not get another year to feel this way, because next year I'll probably be stressing again, I'm going to sit back and enjoy being completely insane.  I'm going to live for the moments, like we had tonight, where the children asked about Santa and we entered in together the imaginary world that I weaved for them.  

 

 

[MommyJanice44]

Mar. 28, 2010 at 11:11 AM

I loved what you wrote .. As for me .. I should really take your advice and live for the moment also .. Thanks this was awesome ....