I survived

[LUVWJ]

You hurt me,

You tried to break me,

you traumatized me.

You Terrorized my childhood,

You haunted my nightmares.

 I was your plaything,

your sexual toy.

When you were supposed to love me

you ruined me.

You hurt those that I love,

you locked us in closets,

you threw my brother against the wall when he tried to stop you.

You took the phones when you left the house so we couldn't get help,

you were the person who was supposed to protect us from predators,

Except the predator was you.

I fear you now.

I can't sleep with the closet door open,

so terrified that you are hiding in it,

ready to hurt me,

again.

You affect my marriage,

my motherhood,

my everything.

You took away the joy I had as a child,

you made my brother an alcaholic,

you destroyed my Mom.

Someday I will have to tell my children what a monster you are,

and pray they understand.

Sometimes I can't let my husband even touch me,

He doesn't understand.

I can't remember my childhood because I blocked it out,

I don't remember any happiness before we escaped.

You terrorize us still.

We still look over our shoulders,

waiting.

You will never hurt me again,

you will never hurt my family,

you will never destroy me.

I am not the little girl you hurt,

she's dead because you killed her,

I am a Mother now.

I am strong.

I am a wife now,

I am loved.

I am a survivor,

I will not fear,

I will fight.

I will survive.